well not exactly alone my sister and brother are here but they don't really count do they? well whilst every one i know is out at the movies watching spiderman 3 i'm here at home smelling like burning popcorn and yes i mean burning not burnt. it's a continual scent that never gives out... the gift that keeps on giving you could say. i don't think it really matters what i'm doing right now... what really matters is what i SHOULD be doing. i SHOULD be working on my english homework because if i don't i'll fail this semester. i SHOULD be finishing the 5 books i started reading yesterday and am now half way through. i SHOULD be stressed out about whether my grandmother is still alive right now or not. i SHOULD be talking to my sister and let her know that i know everything she's been doing(i'll not list it but they're some pretty gross things). i SHOULD be going outside to "shed pounds" like my aunt wants me to. i SHOULD be trying to please everyone i come into contact with. but instead of getting stressed out and letting my anxiety take over, and adding to the aggrivation that i've been building up this week i'm sitting here at the computer desk, pouring my thoughts out in a blog that no one'll read. it makes me want to scream sometimes at the fact that no one in my school notices that i exist, other than the 12 people that are kind enough to recognize a "litle lost girl" who's only been here for 3 months and still hasn't spoken a word to anyone but those 12 people. it makes me feel malice against everyone, but i can't really lash out at them for that legally, right? burning_eyes scream crying
 moon lit illusionist · Sat May 05, 2007 @ 12:49am · 0 Comments |
