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Y'know... Could parallel universe even exist? Think about it.. In a brief explenation its supposed to be the opposite of this universe. And what is the sum total of this universe? To survive and evolve. What is the opposite to the circle of nature? There is millions of millions of different stuff in this world and what the opposite to all that? Whats the opposite to human skin or hair?

And how can u scientifically proove something? Yes, the atoms or molecules or whatever collide and there is a reaction. But why? Why is there a reaction from some molecules or atoms or whatever it is colliding? It can go on and on forever! Is it not a matter of how natural the reaction is? I mean how used we are to know this reaction? Is that why we dont believe in paranormal stuf n shitf? Because we are not used to it and never get a chance to research on it? It may as heck be as natural as anything else on this planet! We just dont know anything about it!

*puff on pipe and play with long beard of wisdome*

I believe it is.. Dunno really what to write. Sure i'll come up with something. I just need to come in the flow.. Like im sorta doing now. Everything is kinda s**t right now.. again. Its this ******** summer, i bet. I dont know what to do cuz everything seems hopeless. Time is running but for no good. I just wrote something in 10 min but i erased it. :/ Useless junk about how useless i am. Ah, there it is again! biggrin Useless junk! I dont know how long i can take this. Im waiting for the ******** train, man! The train to whatever is supposed to give you a reason to live your ******** life! Its not comming and im running outa patience here! I have so much inside me i want to express. But i cant and it makes me very sad. I have a little seed inside me who want to grow up and bloom. But there is something called feelings that ruins everything.

:/

Do I have something nice to add? *thinking* No.. *trying to think positive* Well.. I did actually earn 4k today at the marketplace. And i got a nice outfit for my avatar. But i still want more money. *greed* and i want more friends and i want more guilds with nice discussions and i want a parrot.

******** this s**t. Nite.

Well.. waddya know. Im a gaiajunkie. I ask my bf if i can use his computer 'cause gaia works much better on his. And he cant say no to my puppyeyes. smile I like the guildfeature. The official forums are so friggin messy. Its too much junk at the same time. WIth the guilds you just search on your interests and there you got it! Alltho its not so easy to find what you want. But i found theses two special forums that are really nice. smile Too bad there's not so much action to suit my needs. But i got nothing else better to do so.. The gaiagames are pretty fun too. Im a real gangster at black jack and i try to earn as much money as possible. But i never got higher than 4000golds. Wonder how everyone else get so friggin much gold. And the items are fecking expensive too! Next thing im thinking of buying is a new hairdoo. But im not sure. I like the hair how it is now. Its like my real hair. And i dont know if i want my avi to reflect my real self. Cuz in real life i would never change my hair, no matter how much i like a color or haircut. My hair is too beautiful.. But sometimes a little bit boring. Oh jeez.. when did i get so fscking girly? I bought body lotion a coupla days ago for the first time in my life and im 20! It even got this shitty silk shimmering init! But i swear i didnt buy it because of the shimmer. Thats really _really_ ever too girly for me. I just didnt notice it when i bought it. I was putting it on and saw how it was shimmering unusally much compared to normal lotion, read on the bottle and it said with tiny tiny letter "with silk shimmer". sweatdrop wtf man.. At first i didnt want it anymore. I mean... fsking shimmer dont feal so healthy for your skin! buut what tha heck.. ive been using it for a while now and nothing bad happened. And the shimmer is actually quite nice ^^ Not that ive been feeling girly or something.. But recently i feel like i've become more of a woman. There is a strange feeling in my body i've never felt before. A feeling of maturity(?) and female streanght.. sounds like rubbish, i know.. but maybe that happens to all females? I hope its not my biological clock or something. If so.. IM DOOMED!