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i feel weak......like a starved animal living on the streets
my body shakes......aches all over
im tired and out of energy
maybe these last few months took a lot out of me
i dont know..........
memmories haunt me.......of sad faces
my old friends
of the people who destroied me inside
the horrible and wonderful memmories claw at me
i long to fill a hole
a very big hole.......
the black hole my heart has become......
takeing happiness.......
is it hate?
is it saddness?
no...........it might just me the 14 years of pain catching up with me
still im told theres light....
so i try to ingor what i feel and go for the wonderful light......happiness
but those feelings seem to always come back...........no matter what i do