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NOTE: These are just a bunch of entries taken from my myspace and facebook. Sorry if they don't make that much sense. ^^'

Spring quarter = 3.6!!! Whooo! 3 points lower than Winter quarter, but at least it's still in the 3.0s. Anyway, I'm having a hard time deciding what I want to take this Fall quarter. I've completed my Composition courses so I don't have to worry about that. I'm thinking maybe taking and Art and a Math (boo...). On the bright side, when I pass my Math 98 class (with a 2.0 or higher) I can take a math class that is directed to Art majors biggrin Me, excited about Math? Ha... Ha ha ha ha... ANYWAY, it's getting to Math 98 that's kind of discouraging.
Also, I've taken three classes for the past two quarters, but I'm not sure how I'll manage it this quarter, consider two of the courses I want to take are nearly three hours long each... Dang it! I have until the 22nd of September to decide... Poop...
Sorry for the rambling, just trying to sort my thoughts...

I have 4 hours to complete an application for an Educational Grant and have to pray my teachers get my letters of recommendation sent in on time. Twice since I've registered for classes my parents have listend without really listening to what I am saying. Last ngiht my dad was too distracted by Harry Potter to really pay attention to me stating that one of my classes covers three of my degree requirments and today my mom... well... let's just say She's either becoming senile or her drinking has taken a toll on her brain already.

I keep trying to put my faith in God but I just get so frustrated that I have to work so much harder than others it seems, to get my foot in the door. I know it will work out in the end, but the road getting there is very agitating.

My favorite musician is no longer working under a label. The album with her singles on it for Fatal Frame IV is her last project. I'm totally bummed.

Nicole and I did our duet Sunday. It was pretty much awesome, hopefully I'll have some pictures soon.

I need to do something about my caffine addiction @_@ I couldn't sleep last night because I drank some Chai tea before bed... Which is black tea... which is pretty caffinated, lol!

ANYWAY! School update! I'm actually taking 12 credits now. I added a painting class to my schedule. And I'm suppose to be hearing from the scholarship place within a week or so and hopefully going in for an interview and then hopefully getting a grant 8D Prayers welcome, thanks. :3

I'm worried for my Tate. I love him so. Pray for him too.

Well, it is time for some much needed Naruto watching!

'...Bind my wandering heart to Thee: prone to wander, Lord, I feel it, Prone to leave the God I love: Hear's my heart, O take and seal it, Seal it for thy courts above.'

Now I understand why God took what seemed like forever to give me that grace I've been praying for earnestly for like, 6 months. He was waiting to give it to me till I needed it most, which is now, these last 2 months. I am so, SO thankful for it.

My heart is all confused at the moment, though. It isn't quiet sure what to do with itself.

I think I'll have some tea while it's sorting things out.

I've been looking for new survival horror games to play and a couple poeple on the BCL forums suggested Rule Of Rose. It's about this young woman who is thrown (or rather, kicked) into a screwed up fairytale where terrible little girls that call themselves the Red Crayon Aristocrats make you do terrible things to get amoungst their ranks. And it's full of scary imp children that like to stab you with large staby impliments or squeeze you to death. Anyway, it truly is a terrifying game and it makes me think of me when I was a small child XD

I went on a quest for this sweet purple nailpolish by OPI today. It's called 'Eiffle For It'. It's apart of their fall 'France' line. While I was picking it out, I noticed their summer 'India' theme and this amazing red-orange color: Monsoone Or Later. I've been looking for a bright orangeish color for a long time. It's rather obnoxious, lol. biggrin

Also, school stuff is REALLY irritating. Like, omg, I'm so pissed with how everything is going. Why, WHY does this always happen. POOP! Also, I've been encountering alot of spiders in my room. Like, ALOT. I almost threw my laptop the other day when one came running down my arm out of thin air. And tonight one came sneaking up on me downstairs while I was trying to figure out some school crap. Grrr, icky bugs....

When I came home from Oregon, I found out from my mom that my grandma has Emphysema. She's never smoked in her life. Apparently it's from getting pnuemonia so much as a kid. She still hasn't told me herself. I also found out the same day that my brother has Emphysema ON TOP OF another lung disease. Oh, and he has lymphoma. WTF. I haven't spoken to my brother face-to-face in six years. I feel like he'll be dead once I get all the paper work and legal crap taken care of. Poop.

Dad is in a mood tonight. My back hurts. Today doesn't feel like Friday.

Fall quarter = 17 cr. OMG. MY BRAIN EXPLODE. It's still only three classes though, lol. I just registered for my Intergrated Studies class wrong. Tuition is steadily climbing for me. If the SMF doesn't com through, I'm going to have to drop my Intergrated Studies and just take Paiting and Yoga (yeah for classes twice a week!).

Rule Of Rose gave my mom nightmares. Lol. I downloaded the soundtrack, it is so awesome. My mom likes it too. Because it has awesome strings. She's learning how to play the violin, after all.

Quarter starts in two weeks. I wonder if I'll make it in time. +stresses+

Disappointed. 17 cr drops down to 7. SMF fell through. I payed for my tuition myself which made me drop my integrated studies class. I am so disappointed. The letter they sent me was generic. Like, 'Dear _______' with my name penned in. My dad asked me if they gave a reason why and obviously the didn't/couldn't give me the scholarship. Even though they didn't, I know it could be one of two reasons. One, I turned my application in late. Or two, those I asked to write letters of recommendations for me procrastinated, or didn't get back to me at all.

On the bright side, I will be able to concentrate on some of my art projects I got set up. After all I'll be going to school only twice a week. I also might be able to get a apart time job.

Despite not being able to take as many credits as I wanted, I don't think it'll be too bad of a quarter. I also need to start working on the application for winter quarter.

I'll post a more current entry after this, so you're confusing won't murder you, lol.

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