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This is where you will find my thoughts, ideas, stories, poems, feelings, and so much more. If you want to get into my head this is where you should go.
Beginning
Beginning of one of my stories.....

The cherry blossoms fell softly as the tranquil river flowed, carrying small fish down stream. The wind softly sang as it blew through the trees. That was the day i was taken away. The warm air and even warmer sun the ground and grass a comfortable temperature. The birds were singing softly and the wind blew my hair to a steady beat. the sun warmed my face as the soft water cooled my feet. Everything was beautiful, even i felt beautiful that day. My small shorts rested on my pelvic bones while my bikini top felt weightless. My hair, messed by the wind, seemed blonder then ever in the July sun. I laid softly in the grass as i watched the white cotton ball clouds pass through the baby blue sky. The birds became quiet all at once, and foot steps in the grass were strongly defined. Ignoring the intruder I continue to gaze at the clouds, figuring it was just a busy body scouting the location for a picnic of what have you. The intruder's presence didn't leave for quite some time. Soon they took a step toward me. Ignoring them once more, I sat up and began to admire a cherry blossom that had fallen into my lap.
"Do you come here often?" the intruder finally spoke in a deep but cold voice.
"Yes actually, I do. I come here very often. It's just as beautiful in the winter." I reply continuing to admire the cherry blossom. The intruder took another step forward towards me. "So can i help you with something?" the intruder then took another step forward closing the gap between us.
"Actually, I'd like to help myself to you." the intruder said chuckling loudly.
"Excuse me?" I say standing up and turning toward the intruder.
"You heard me." he grinned moving closer to me. Looking into his eyes I took a step backwards not knowing what to do. His eyes were filled with lust while his body was relaxed and loose, he smelled slightly of alcohol. Cringing I searched for a way out as he moved even closer this time grabbing my arm. Pulling away i tried to leave by running sideways out of his reach, but his arm stopped me in one swift movement. Turning me around and holding me against him i could feel his heart beat against my back. Looking out toward the forest i realized a cold sharp knife was against my throat. His grip on my tightened, and I felt his warm breath against the back of my neck. "Play nice now you hear. A doll like you could get herself hurt playing rough like that." he whispered in my ear his breath clinging to the tip of my ear. He then placed his lips softly to my neck kissing it, his lips leaving their alcohol residue. I cringed in disgust.
"Let me go!" I say trying to remain calm.
"How about we go for alittle walk first?" he says more commanding then asking. The knife slowly moved against my skin. Doing as he commanded I began to walk slowly, trying not to anger him. The last thing i need is an angry drunk trying to kidnap me.





My Life
you see my tears
you see my pain
yet you do nothing
you see my joy
you see my love
yet you dont smile
you see me accomplish
you see me win
yet you dont cheer
you see me fall in love
you see me full of happiness
yet you dont give advice
you see me stumble
you see my fall
yet you dont help me up
you see me grow
you see my change
yet you see me the same
you see me try
you see my fail
yet you dont help
you see me beg for you
you see my cry for your attention
yet you turn away
you see me long for your love
you see me long for your words
yet you push me out
you see me ask for you
you see me ask for you mom...
yet you leave me behind
you see me cry
yet you leave me for good and forget me here





Why?
why did you go?
was i not good enough?
or was it dad?
people say it was because you loved me
others say that you didn't want me
and some just say that you didn't care
what was it?
was it cause i was your third?
was it cause you wanted a boy?
or was it cause you just wanted to let go?
i think its cause you wanted the best
i think its cause you wanted me to have a life
and i think its cause you might have wanted me to turn into dad not you
but i don't know
was it because you were afraid?
was it cause you wanted to be M.I.A?
or was it cause you were just lost and didn't understand?
i just want to know
i just want to know who you are
i just want to know why
mom
i just want to know
im so lost





Gone
She's gone, She's gone
she was just a dreamer
she was a mis believer
she shattered my hopes
she made it imposable to cope
She's gone, She's gone
she always lied
she never tried
she left me there
she thought "why should i care"
She's gone, She's gone
she split our hopes apart
she ripped up my heart
she can't see my tears
she wished i wasn't here
She's gone She's gone
she killed my life
she cut my dreams with a knife
she never cared
she was never there
She's gone She's gone
she can't call herself a monther
she can't call herself a lover
she can't call me her daughter
she can't stay in my heart any longer
she's gone, she's forever gone
she came into my life once more
i thought it wasn't for sure
i was skeptical and afraid
i thought that it would never be made
i wanted her out of my heart
i now never want us to part
i know alittle of her now
i know alittle of her now
i want to see her for sure
i dont know if i can take it though anymore
she's here, she's here
oh my god now where
where do i go where do i go
how do i cope
how do i cope
she's here she's here
shes oh so near





Our Dance
Our Dance
your touch leaves me petrified
every word seeming amplified
your breath in rhythm with mine
eyes looking so divine
your speech so smooth
while you sooth
your presence seems a miracle
the conversation becoming lyrical
your expression helps to enhance
the lightful movements of our dance
your guiding grace
the quickening pace
your firm hand on my back
we spin slowly, grace we hope we don't lack
your eyes pierce my soul
hold me close I'm cold
your steady beat takes me away
we move from the pack slightly astray
you move close we're now alone
steal a kiss and my heart unknown
your page in my life has now been told
about the dance that we hold





World
i might have piercings
i might have blue hair
i might have tattoos
i might be gay
i might be gothic
i might be Hispanic
i might wear black
i might wear chains
i might wear dog collars
But it gives you no right!
no right to segregate
to poke fun
to categorize
to fight
to threaten
to humiliate
to banish
you might have money
you might have valuables
you might have friends
you might be cool
you might be popular
you might be sporty
you might wear expensive jewelry
you might wear expensive cologne
you might wear expensive clothes
But it gives you no right!
no right to hate
to hurt
to kill
to torment
to judge
to beat
to punish
i am the same!
i care about life
i care about freedom
i care about health
i listen to arguments
i listen to agreements
i feel with my heart
i feel pain
i feel joy
And so do you!
even though i look different
we see the same world
we see the same problems
we see the same people
we sleep under the same sky
we sleep for the same reason
we wake to the same sun
we wake to the same day
we wake to the same beat
then...
why do you reject me?
why do you still act as if i am poison?
why do you kill me peers?
I'll tell you why...
you don't UNDERSTAND!
and..
you don't CARE!





Heart Beats
heart beats
promises keep
tell you the story
hope not to worry
keep my calm
hand you my palm
feelings pronounced
tensions aroused
stomach tight
feelings light
eyes wide
cant hide
to you I'm a book
read with your look
you know how i feel
will I need to heal
take a breath
hope not to regret
your holding my heart
please don't let it come apart





Love
feel your touch
hear your whisper
close my eyes
wish for the night
hope for the world
live for the moment
tell you i love you
speak it back to me
whisper the nonsense of tranquility
think of the coming
imagine the future
in vision the possibility
life with you
kept with me
alone tonight
forever shall it be





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