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it seems like life keeps giving me these curve balls...

i'm constantly lost within myself trying to find ways to stop loving someone who cant forgive you for something that you did with someone else even though we werent together...

it sucks that i like certain ppl n i want to be with them but the fact that i love this certain person so much i cant find it within myself to even touch that person...

i really love him n i cant stop thinking about how badly i messed up n how badly i want to show him how much i truely care about him...

i hate how there is no way in hell that i could ever get with him again..
my heart hurts everytime i think about it..but i guess i have to start accepting this fate...

for some reason my heart wishes to not stop loving..but i'm getting hurt within this procces...

what should i do? i told him how i felt n all he says is that he is sorry that he cant forgive me when i really truely love him...

why would he continue to talk to me after things that had happened?
what should i think?
he says he doesnt feel anything..but secretly he actually might feel something..

i dont want to mess things up agian...
i want to do something to show that i really do care..

but what else is there for me to do?
i'm so lost..

i just want a striaght forward answer..
on what should i do?

who should i stay with?

what should i think?

i dont think anyone can answer me honestly...

i'm just so lost...when will i truly find a light to these questions?