Trying to figure something out with my girlfriend. The person I love. To find out whether or not I should decide I'm a ******** up person and doesn't deserve to live or not. And right now, I don't care why I'm telling you, because it doesn't matter anymore. Because it's better to tell someone you don't know rather than someone you do know. Because they can always come after you and tell you "You're not a ******** up person, and you deserve a lot of things." Because I know I'm not, and I don't. Of all the things I've done, this is something no one should have to go through. No one except for me.