i cant sleep well today... they took out my line from my arm yesterday and they put a new one on my neck... it hurts a lot... i bled a lot yesterday... i couldnt be put to sleep during the procedure neither since its not tunneled and i already ate food for lunch that day... so i had to stay awake during the proceedure...
I could feel the needles pinch through me and the chords stab through my vein... I felt my blood dripping and pouring down from my neck to my back.... it was so warm but as I felt it drip a lot more I felt a lot weaker and my eyes were getting drowsy... I lost a lot of blood that day... after they fixed my linem they still had to put pressure on my vein... they changed the cloth and dressing three times yesterday... the blood just kept flooding the cloth until it was covered with the fourth,,,,,
i cant sleep well... its still sore and I cant take pain relievers since it might get to my liver..... I have to be cautious about drinking more fluids too...
its 1 eighteen am right now and Im still awake...
Theres someone out there I miss so much....
Paola....i love you....
I have to be strong for the coming therapies...
99 percent they said.... 90 percent of making it through alive and well...
the 10 percent is for not making it through and you know what that might mean right?
:cries:
i'll do my best for you paola....
I'll do my best to be one of those who make it out 90 percent...
my promise is mortal but I stay true to it...
I'll live for you....
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Winter Fox: Taming Winter
Like the weather, people can be cold...
This is why I always have a warm place in my heart for myself and others...
...so that incase the world freezes...we would always have a warm place to come home to.
-John M. a.k.a. vulpespyro (<-me)
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