I am so sick, sick, sick of rejection. In my life, I've only ever cared about 10 people in "that way." Only 1 has ever accepted, and boy, that didn't work out because I was to stupid to realise what I had before I lost it. That was a couple years back.
I've been rejected by 8. Eight ******** people who I really cared about and still do. Not in the same way, of course, but as friends.
I'm always the best friend. Nothing has ever changed that.
And then there's 1 person who I care about so much. But I know he'd never care about a stupid-as-hell freshman.
And then I realised it. It's not them. It's me. It's not like I'm choosing all the wrong people, they're great and should be in a great relationship if they're not already.
I get it. I'm not pretty, I'm not fun to be around, I'm just a person you talk to. I'm sorry I'm such a ******** imposer. Be happy, forget about me here, single in the shadows, unable to even cry out of how I feel, even though I feel like a ******** piece of s**t. MAJOR s**t.
I'm sorry I can't be who anyone wants. Be happy without me.
 Ajina Enbi · Sat Oct 04, 2008 @ 02:08am · 0 Comments |
