DAMN! ITS ALL MY ******** FAULT THEY R FIGHTING! ALL BECAUSE OF A ******** BINDER! DAD YELLS MOM YELLS AND U TRACE THEIR FIGHT STRAIGHT TO ME! I HATE THIS, I DONT THINK I CAN TAKE THIS ANYMORE
THIS FAMILY WOULD BE A WHOLE LOT HAPPIER AND BETTER IF I WAS NEVER HERE
I KNOW THAT AND THEY KNOW THAT
EVEN THOUGH THEY WONT TELL ME THAT I STILL KNOW ITS EASILY SIMPLE MINDED LOGIC!
IM THE DAMN REASON NO ONE GETS ALONG
IM THE ONE WHO STARTS s**t WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING IT!!
My life is going down in a dark endless spiral of hate, pain, and death
BULL EVERYONE SEE'S US AS A HAPPY FAMILY, NOT TRUE
LIFE IS BECOMING UNBEARABLE FOR ME TO HANDLE
i dont have control anymore it seems like im the black cat of misfortune
anyone who comes near me will suffer
suffer without me even knowing or caring...
im a selfish sly little b***h
all my life i wondered why i had that devil dream
{the devil coming to me at a young age telling me im his daughter}
im sumwat of a Christain
geeze i dont know who or what i am anymore!!
but now the dream/nightmare has began to come all together
im putting together the pieces and maybe im not the devils daughter
but i am the worst human out there
ive done things no one would even know or believe
not even my bestfriend of eternity knows
i feel like such a hypocrite
im not who ppl think i am im a total fake!
i feel horrible not telling my friend anything even though she had confided in me with so much
life has taken a toll on me for the worse.
im not the type to commit suicide
i wont of course not!
but i may not want to commit suicide i just maybe want to fade away into the evaporation
to have no one know who i am to have nothing to do with me
maybe if i have others hate me they wouldn't want anything to do with me, and i will only be a distant memory of their past
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Life sux. We all know. Just deal with it the best you can. Yeah rite.
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