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STFU.
Too much stress.
So, I decided to finally update my journal because so much has been happening, and I feel like writing all of it down in case any of you were curious.

To begin, I have no job. I need one. And when I say "need", I mean it. With no job, I have barely any money to pay for books for college. Mind you, the books I need are CRAZY expensive, even when buying them used. So, I'm pretty much ********. My parents don't want to help me pay, and I'm not someone who will go and ask people for help. I dunno why, but I just don't.

Next, my boyfriend and I broke up the other day. It turned out to be a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. He's someone who gets pissed really easily, and enjoys arguing over any little thing. And some of our mutual friends would go up to him saying that I was doing things behind his back, which was total and udder bullshit. I'm not someone who would do s**t behind someone else's back. And the fact that he believed what anyone else told him, just pissed me off. Mind you, he was going to be my ride to my classes and whatnot when school started.. And yes, of course.. that means I have no way to school and back now. I have no money to pay for a bus, and I have no money to pay for someone to take me to school. "I NEED A JOB."

Then, there's my mother who continuously yells at me for not having a job. She claims that I don't try hard enough... Last I knew, I can't make a place hire me. I send in my application, and I call in several times to check on my application. What more does that woman expect me to do? It's not MY fault no place is hiring, What the ********...

Next on my list, is my supposed best friend is one of the people that has been telling me ex that I have been doing things behind his back and whatnot. She also told him that the only reason I was ever with him was for rides to my classes. Then she has the ******** guts to say, "I didn't say that, Cindy!" BULLSHIT. I'm sick of liars. She's done nothing but make his and mine's relationship shitty. She always would lie about someone doing something, then we'd get mad at each other. It's ridiculous. Ugh. I'm sick of it.

Lastly, if I don't get a job soon.. I'll have to drop out of my fall semester. I've worked way too hard to just do this. :[ I really don't want to. I'm excited to start my next semester and I don't want to ******** everything up just because my mom thinks I can't handle it...

I've always handled things by myself, I'll do fine. :/



And that's about it. Meh.





MentalDisasterx
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