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What I e-mailed/PMed other about the crisis from yesterday. It's a full summary!


A minimum of 6 girls had to be carried away to the ambulence yesterday during the P.E. test. The last test was to run around the huge track two times (equals half a mile) in 5 minutes.

But they weren't used to all that running. Many girls barely ate anything the night before or that morning. Aaaaand it was past 12 and theyd idn't give us any lunch. They were crying and couldn't moce at all. They looked like they were dyeing of pain...

I was fine because the teachers didn't want me to run since so many people WITHOUT asthma were already dyeing (not really dyeing...but yeah) and I have asthma, so it would have been worse for me.

At first i was helping my friends Mariam and Nadirah, and trying my best not to cry. And i ended up helping just Nadirah because it's hard to pay full attention to at two people at once. And Nadirah was crying...like everyone else, and her cousin came and hugged her while she cried, and her younger sis was crying as well. So I tried to calm her down. But ended up crying as well xD Great example that was. Also Nadirah didn't want to call her mom, because it might get her worried. And that made me really mad xD

When I saw Nadirah had enough people to help her out, I went to Mariam because there was only one girl with her. And by that time the ambulence came to pick them up, and I started crying even harder. So this other girl named Aclema (strange names eh?) from our grade had to drag me away from them, and the the idiot math teacher was laughing like this was some comedy show for him. When he saw me was like, "Why are you guys making it look so dramatic?" And it only made me feel worse. I felt a little embarrassed to be crying so much...and another teacher thought I was also in pain. Lol.

But what really gets on my nerves is that many of the students were boasting about how they helped the others, while the rest were just laughing and took it all as a joke. And not only that, the math teacher was talking to the other 8th grade today about me crying and saying I was crying out load and he tried to imitate me, which did NOT sound anything like my crying! And the whole class started to laugh...and this other was making fun of me. Grr...

P.S. Oh my oh my...I wrote way too much. I'm so sorry! I ranted a bit there xD It's just that I HAD to tell someone about all this...I couldn't keep it in...sorry sad



My convo with Nat:


Hamim Sultana: my stupid sis wont let me play star ocean!
Hamim Sultana:
Hamim Sultana: I wanna play star ocean!
Hamim Sultana: when i first got it and played I cou;dn't save because I didnt have a memory card yet...i forgot to buy it lo.
Hamim Sultana: and now i wanted to play but she was whinning to watch TV
Hamim Sultana: and she watches TV AAAALLLLL day!
Hamim Sultana: and she can go watch TV in the kitcehn or tjhe bedroom
Hamim Sultana: but nooooooo
Hamim Sultana: she has to watch it in the living room!
Hamim Sultana: playing video games ina small tv (the tv int he bedroom is small) is annoying!
Hamim Sultana: and it's not like i play video games all day
Natalie ... has signed back in. (5/18/2007 9:52 PM)

Hamim Sultana: would it kill her to let me play for now?
Hamim Sultana: omg!
Hamim Sultana: i was sending u like a million offline messages wishing u were on, and here u are xD
Natalie ...: XD i was tired lol
Natalie ...: and i was trying to call the twins
Natalie ...: but they don't answer
Hamim Sultana: oh ok
Natalie ...: man im so sleepy right now im yawinging and yawning and it's making my eyes water
Natalie ...: lol
Hamim Sultana: u should probably go sleep then
Natalie ...: my mom even asked if i was crying and i said "ha! no! im yawning. it's making my eyes watery"
Hamim Sultana: and oh!
Natalie ...: and she said "oh"
Natalie ...: lol
Natalie ...: mm?
Hamim Sultana: u CAN comment in the journals!
Hamim Sultana: hehehee
Natalie ...: lol yeah i saw
Hamim Sultana: hehehe
Natalie ...: i signed on late yesterday and saw ur comment
Hamim Sultana: u just click "oh"
Hamim Sultana: i mean add!
Hamim Sultana: man my head is messed up
Hamim Sultana: i added some things to my entry from yesterday...i think i should add it to today's entry as well
Hamim Sultana: AND OMG!~
Hamim Sultana: io forgot to tell u!
Hamim Sultana: i have too many things to dsay!
Hamim Sultana: volume 7 of spiral has been out!
Hamim Sultana:
Hamim Sultana: im soooooooo happy!
Natalie ...: lalala i saw that entry too
Natalie ...: lol
Hamim Sultana: which entry?
Natalie ...: the one of spiral
Hamim Sultana: ooh okies
Natalie ...: well not entry but comment
Hamim Sultana: so u read it again yesterday? lol
Hamim Sultana: oooh okies
Hamim Sultana: i forgot what i wrote in it
Hamim Sultana: lol
Natalie ...: lol
Natalie ...: man i can't stop crying from all the yawning XD
Hamim Sultana: lol
Hamim Sultana: and omg!
Hamim Sultana: u should read the manga!
Hamim Sultana: it's a lot better than the anime!
Hamim Sultana: well...i love the naime as well
Hamim Sultana: dont get me wrong, i love both
Hamim Sultana: it's just that the manga sorta expresses things better and u can never get tired of anyhting
Natalie ...: lol yeah i know and i will read it
Natalie ...: soon
Hamim Sultana: the naime got a little old with all the bombs, but i still love it
Natalie ...: oh! i only have like 5 weeks of school left!
Natalie ...: WOO!
Natalie ...:
Hamim Sultana: OOOOOH EEEMMM GEEEEH!
Hamim Sultana: u should hjave sene it!
Hamim Sultana: *shocked*
Hamim Sultana: i was like ahhh! i can't believe he did it!
Hamim Sultana: like...so many people and...
Hamim Sultana: ok i'll try to shut up
Hamim Sultana: really? coolio!
Natalie ...: imma tell gabi if on our last day, she wants to hang out at the mall cause it's right next to our school and we can go eat there and watch movies and everything!
Hamim Sultana: hehe cool
Natalie ...: yup!
Hamim Sultana: but u must read the spiral manga!
Hamim Sultana: if u dont, u are not a true fan!
Natalie ...: haha i will!
Natalie ...: XD
Natalie ...: don't worry i know im not
Natalie ...: i just don't wanna be
Hamim Sultana: me and the other girl are real fans of spiral atm! *sticks out tounge*
Natalie ...: i know for a fact, that anime and manga gets me crazy XD
Natalie ...: lol
Hamim Sultana: u dont wanna be a true fan????
Hamim Sultana: *gasp*
Natalie ...: and i don't wanna get TOO crazy
Natalie ...: after all, next year imma be a lot more busy
Hamim Sultana: so u no likey spiral so much?
Hamim Sultana: *nod head in shame*
Natalie ...: so i have to kinda get out of the habit of letting anime and manga revolve all around my life
Hamim Sultana: *huggles ashen* you're my true friend that loves spiral with me!
Natalie ...: XD
Natalie ...: don't get me wrong, i love spiral
Hamim Sultana: don't "XD" ME! baka!
Hamim Sultana: *slaps you*
Hamim Sultana: eat worms!
Hamim Sultana: ...
Natalie ...: but i don't want it to be like the main thing in my life right now
Hamim Sultana: *doesnt believe you*
Natalie ...: cause i need to focus more on school now
Natalie ...: and on basketball
Hamim Sultana: i focus on everything at the same time
Hamim Sultana: lol
Natalie ...: and sadly drawing since i suck at it so i need most help in that XD
Hamim Sultana: anime, manga, vidoe games, and...well yeah...my life is a bit messed up right now so I only have those things to help me
Natalie ...: i can't do that. lol. when it comes to anime and school, my attention doesn't spread equally amongst the two
Natalie ...: omfg cool!
Hamim Sultana: hehee, for some strange reason i can balance them out *feels proud*
Natalie ...: i just made 2010 gold on gaia
Hamim Sultana: coolio!
Hamim Sultana: congrats!
Natalie ...: and that's the same year i'll be graduating from hs!
Natalie ...: WOOO!
Natalie ...: lol
Hamim Sultana: lol
Natalie ...: irnoic O.O
Natalie ...: haha
Natalie ...: ironic*
Hamim Sultana: oh and today we had the lap test for science
Hamim Sultana: and it was quite easy
Hamim Sultana: but but but the part with the fruit fly and the microscope was GROSS!
Natalie ...: XD
Natalie ...: lol
Hamim Sultana: and when i looked through it i gasped and leanched back a little and covered my mouth
Hamim Sultana: and my science teacher was like, "what's wrong? gross?"
Hamim Sultana: and i just nodded.lol
Hamim Sultana: and and and remember that math teacher form yesterday?
Hamim Sultana: well he was talking about me in 8A!
Hamim Sultana: he said i made it look very dramatic and i was crying like crazy and he tried to imitate me
Hamim Sultana: which did NOT sound like me!
Hamim Sultana: He was like, "Yesterday Hamim was crying like it was sucha big deal"
Hamim Sultana: and other things i dont remember
Hamim Sultana: and he was making the whole class laugh
Hamim Sultana: and this guy named Leo was making fun of me and laughing the hardest
Hamim Sultana: they're all so mean!
Hamim Sultana: *sigh*
Natalie ...: what a meanie!!!
Natalie ...: that's not nice!
Hamim Sultana: i guess i was the one the cried the most...excluding the people in actual pain
Natalie ...: what the hell? i bet if he were one of the kids that got hurt, he wouldn't be laughing! >_<
Hamim Sultana: and he's an adult! he should understand!
Hamim Sultana: im sure he wouldnt laugh liek that if his SON was one of those kids!
Natalie ...: YEAH!
Hamim Sultana: what's wrong with crying for your friends?
Hamim Sultana: i dont want to boast or anyhting
Hamim Sultana: but i doubt there are many "friends" out there that would cry for another friend!
Hamim Sultana: and mariam and nadirah aren't even like...very veyr veyr close firends like u and me!
Hamim Sultana: but i still care!
Hamim Sultana: and my sis wont play star ocean!
Hamim Sultana:
Hamim Sultana: i mean she wont lwet me play star ocean!
Natalie ...: people just don't seem to care as much anymore
Hamim Sultana: yeah...
Natalie ...: seriously, if i were there, i probably would be crying too
Hamim Sultana: at least the science teacehr asked me during lunch time if I'm ok
Natalie ...: i mean, seeing everyone else in pain would make me sad and yeah
Hamim Sultana: but she didn't laugh at me!
Natalie ...: yeah!
Hamim Sultana: i tried hard not to cry, but i couldn't take it anymore when they were being taken inside the ambulence
Hamim Sultana: so i started to cry
Hamim Sultana: i wanted to be there with them
Hamim Sultana: but i knew i couldn't
Hamim Sultana: i knew they'd be ok
Hamim Sultana: but i still had to cry
Hamim Sultana: because of the math teacher i couldn't let all the pain out
Hamim Sultana: and shed the tears i wanted to shed
Natalie ...:
Hamim Sultana: so right now i feel like something is incomplete
Hamim Sultana: most of the time, crying makes me feel lighter
Hamim Sultana: and every single time...when i burp after crying for a very long time i feel better and stop crying xD
Hamim Sultana: u know how babies do that? same with me
Natalie ...: lol yeah
Natalie ...: hehe
Hamim Sultana: why is everyone being so mean to me today???
Hamim Sultana: at school witht he teachers and the students
Hamim Sultana: and at home with my parents and my sis
Hamim Sultana: that's why right now the video games, anime, and manga cheers me up.
Hamim Sultana: i know it may sound weird
Hamim Sultana: but it's true...i can barely concentrate on school work because of all the pressure
Natalie ...: idk i seriously don't get why certain people are treated so badly by others and there's not even a legable reason as to why
Hamim Sultana: and the SS teacher called me slow today!
Hamim Sultana: icouldn't finish much of this test she gave me, and she was like, "Oh my goodness! you're so SLOW!"
Hamim Sultana: *sigh* watever I don't anymore. (<--Taht's a lie)
Hamim Sultana: that's*
Hamim Sultana: grr!
Hamim Sultana: i can't even spell!
Natalie ...: it's ok i know how u feel
Natalie ...: i just sometimes would like to know why im sometimes treated like crap
Natalie ...: it would make my life a lot easier
Natalie ...: even if the truth hurts
Hamim Sultana: well, it says, that when Allah likes someone, he sorta puts them through many pains, so that all the sins you've done here will be erased
Hamim Sultana: what i mean is
Hamim Sultana: u get the punishment here so u wouldn't have to deal with it in the after life
Hamim Sultana: wait...do u get what i mean?
Hamim Sultana: im no good in explaining
Natalie ...: yeah but jeez some love he's got to give
Natalie ...: i rather go through the punishment in my after life than now
Natalie ...: i want a peaceful life now
Hamim Sultana: so sometimes i just shrug it off and say, "im one of the people he loves and it'll just erase the sins i've made. i wont have to be in pain later"
Natalie ...: and afterwards, i don't care what i get
Hamim Sultana: wellt he one in after life is going to be forever, according to us
Hamim Sultana: according to what i believe in
Hamim Sultana: so i'd rather get over with all the pain now
Hamim Sultana: and rest in peace forever later on
Hamim Sultana: which do u htink sounds better?
Hamim Sultana: it's not like the world will go on forevere.
Hamim Sultana: again, this is all according to what i believe, so i hope i dont offend you
Hamim Sultana:
Natalie ...: nah it's ok lol i understand
Natalie ...: but again, i don't believe in an afterlife per se
Hamim Sultana: ooh okies
Natalie ...: so this is the only life i get to live
Natalie ...: and i want it to be peaceful
Natalie ...: or at least wish it to be
Hamim Sultana: everything has a reason, so this life has a reason, so yeah
Natalie ...: it's kinda hard to explain
Natalie ...: it's like, i have done nothing wrong in life
Natalie ...: so why am i being punished?
Hamim Sultana: no idea xD sorry, but since we don't have the same beliefes I wont be able to comfort u there
Hamim Sultana: but because of my beliefs i always comfort myself. and i also tried it on one of my cousins
Hamim Sultana: so i dont care too much about what happens here. we'll deal with the pain here and live with joy in the afterlife!
Natalie ...: lol
Natalie ...: k
Hamim Sultana: so yeah, i dont feel too bad. my beliefes are strong, so that's what keeps me standing all the time
Hamim Sultana: well not literally standing, im always sitting but yeah.
Natalie ...: i don't necessarily believe in an afterlife more like reincarnation. i feel like what others think is heaven is a place where once u've fufilled all ur life long dreams, u go there and rest but if u have not fufilled them, u get a second chance to live and are reincarnated. haha it's a lame and weird belief but for some reason i find it cool and it would be awesome if it were true so i like to believe in it
Natalie ...: but i know deep down that's not true
Hamim Sultana: oops, i think i confused u there xD
Hamim Sultana: afterlife as in a life in heaven
Hamim Sultana: that's what i meant
Hamim Sultana: i guess our beliefes are a little similar
Hamim Sultana: what huh?
Hamim Sultana: u believe in reincarnation?
Natalie ...: lol yup. well "christian" don't believe in that
Natalie ...: they believe in an afterlife in heaven
Natalie ...: i believe in that too
Natalie ...: but i feel like
Natalie ...: ppl are only sent there
Natalie ...: when they've fufilled everything
Natalie ...: when they're finished with their destiny
Natalie ...: but they are reincarnated until they can fufil that destiny and goals and then move on to heaven
Natalie ...: and obviously those who choose to do wrong and ignore their greater way in life are sent to hell
Hamim Sultana: eh? so u believe that in reincarnations as well?
Hamim Sultana: *confused*
Natalie ...: XD yup
Natalie ...: lol
Hamim Sultana: ooh okies
Hamim Sultana: hehe
Hamim Sultana: my parents are agrueing >_<
Hamim Sultana: argueing*
Hamim Sultana: well it's nothing new
Hamim Sultana: im used to it
Hamim Sultana: bla
Hamim Sultana: and my sis isn't even watching tv!
Hamim Sultana: and she didn't let me play!
Hamim Sultana: it would probably have killed her to let me play
Hamim Sultana: whatever
Hamim Sultana: i have to go
Hamim Sultana: bye

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