Anyway...on the Monday night, after getting all worked up and being told by a number of friends that he was trying to make me jealous or throw in my face the fact that he was moving on (hence showing me the car etc) I called him (after work) and said that the whole friendship thing might not work, for a number of reasons. I told him that I thought he either knew or should have known that what he said about another girl would hurt me. He countered by saying 'I told you what I would tell any other friend' and that this illustrated one of the reasons why he was frustrated with his life at the moment.
I apologised and we agreed to still meet up on the Friday.
Apparently I am now one of the boys, at least that is the impression that I get. I don't think he even sees me as a girl anymore, which really hurts. I am sure that he would be a little bit more tactful to avoid hurting his female friends' feelings.
I had my DAFF testing on Thursday. It wasn't as scary as I thought...I suppose now I just have to wait and see.
I saw him on Friday. It was weird. We talked (face to face at least) as if everything were fine and nothing had really changed. We saw spiderman 3 and I kept thinking that I really wanted him to touch me, but of course he didn't. That was probably an ego thing though, because I didn't really want to touch him. Oh well
I don't think that he has a realistic view of how things will be if we are friends. The "Just like every other friend" excuse is something that I already hate. If he justifies hurting me by saying this then he isn't really being my friend as he isn't taking any of my feelings into account.
Anyway, that's just some thoughts on that. It will be interesting to see if he calls me again or if he expected me to do all the contacting. I will wait, unless something important comes up. I am sure he will call me when he gets a job.
Hopefully he will get a full-time job in the middle of nowhere where there are no girls and I never have to think about him hooking up with someone else.
That was petty, but it's about how I feel right now.
I have to get ready for work now.
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