I need a ******** vacation or something. I am 19 years old, and I handle myself pretty well. But earlier today I pitched a fit that was bordering on a 5-year old's tantrum and I am REALLY ashamed of myself because of it.
I am a perfectionist about a lot of things, school was never one of them, but it's really become one. I am in a really advanced and high pace summer class right now, and I want to do every single assignment the BEST I can, and get an A. Well today in class the teacher gives us two pretty big things that are due tomorrow, and my book hadn't come yet. It was SUPPOSED to be here yesterday, but it was late.
So earlier today I was getting really mad because I actually WANTED to do these, but my book still hadn't come. I guess I've been under a lot of stress lately because of college and family and my love life, and I just...I just cracked. I went nuts, I was ******** hysterical and crying like someone had just died. I couldn't help it. On top of that, I was mentally hitting myself saying, "God Nikki it's just a book!" but I know it's not over a book.
The book was the straw that broke the camel's back today. Doctor Moonwalker needs a vacation, someone take her away, for just one day.
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