Today was my aunts wake...
...
I cried...
not only because she is gone...
but because everyone else was...
I looked at my cousin...her son...
tears in his eyes...
seeing what his life will be like...
without a mom...
I saw her body...
it didn't look like her, really...
they made her too dressy...
Its not how she usually is...sorry, was...
but thats not how I will remember her...
I wont remember her as the dressy woman I saw today...
I will remember her how I usually saw her...
...
Tomorrow will also be a hard day...
tomorrow is the church service...
im gonna be a paw bearer...
(carries the casket)...
and I hope I dont mess up...
I would NEVER forgive myself if I messed up. . .
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