Heh, I've neglected the journal already. I guess i keep that pattern with journals.
I am a free girl now. This weekend M'lord and I met up. He and his wife gave me a gift of sake and a sake set. She was so excited about it. It is beautiful, but i think my friends are even more eager to try it out than me! heh. But, after she left, M'lord and I got to talking after a movie.
He felt it as much as I did. It was time to seperate. Time for me to be fiercely independent. I cannot lead the life I have currently under someone else. I found strength in the teachings. I won't forget them, they have created a huge impact on my life. He has shown me my own strengths that I never knew I had. I wish I had the time and thought to continue the life style, but we both agreed that it was not for now.
But, he joked and hinted at trying to lure out minou again sometime. I wouldn't mind, but it'll take some time. THe irony of it all: she was just finally warmed to me! *laugh*
Ah well. I can't play second fiddle for forever. I have to create my own life and own relationship.
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