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What
The
********
Is
WRONG
with
ME!?

Why is it that...
Actually....you know what, im glad.
Im glad I was always rejected.
Im glad I was never 'liked.'
Im glad I was never the prettiest.
Never the smartest.
Never the BEST.
Im ******** HAPPY I DON'T HAVE A BOYFRIEND
OR ANYTHING NEAR THAT!
To me its pointless and a ******** WASTE of time!
The ones I fall for are just not for me.
Im just like my mom.....
My taste in men SUCK a**!
Been hurt too many times.
I have plenty more years to be able to be with someone,
But I wont let myself be so easily swayed anymore.
I hate the feeling off loss.
Of rejection.
Of love or like-ness in general.
I am closed up and sealing myself away.
Only for one person, who-ever that may be I just need to say;
If you plan to be with me,
Your going to have one ******** HELL of a time trying to stay with me!
I wont accept or take anything I can get!
NO!
I WILL ONLY TAKE WHAT IS THE BEST!
MY HEART IS ONLY AVALIBLE TO MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY!
NO OTHERS!
And just a FYI to all of you,
I HAVE NEVER BEEN IN LOVE!
It was called 'STUPID.'
That's what I felt!
Nothing EVER close to love.
Not once.