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What nobody knows
By
Amnesia Nymph
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Behind me I can hear Duran fight Kiyohime. I try hard to keep myself from turning around, turning back out of this fight. I know what has to be done and there's just no way of avoiding what fate has in store for me. I am truly sorry Shizuru. From above me I can now hear something fall down towards me, something big. I stop chasing after Shizuru to look up. A large bell is falling down. As it hits the ground and makes sure darkness surrounds me I close my eyes.
After swallowing away the last bit of my doubt I open my eyes again. There's still nothing but darkness surrounding me but I know that it won't last any longer. I may not have shown her but I know her. Shizuru... Did I even try to apologize for what I've done and said to hurt her like this? Suddenly I hear her voice from the other side of the bell that's still holding me as its prisoner. I won't let you go, you're mine. I hear her say before something or someone destroys the bell around me completely. I close my eyes as I feel something surround me.
Somehow I do not fear my sudden attacker. After all, I had already seen this coming. I open my eyes again to look straight into hers. She doesn't smile yet her expression doesn't look pained either. It's a mix from both of them. Since when had I start to become this alert and aware of the details around me? Finally a small smile appears on her lips but it's gone the moment it had appeared. Finally she pulls me closer.
I let myself fall into her arms as I see her put away her weapon. No words are spoken and the only sound surrounding us is the sound of Duran and Kiyohime fighting behind us. I pull away from her embrace a bit but not completely. It feels like hours are passing by as I stare into her eyes while it were only a few seconds before I finallt press my lips to hers. She isn't replying to my kiss. Just as I had expected, she's finally waking up from the 'trance' she had been in.
A few more seconds later I end the kiss by pulling away. It's hard to look at her, I feel so confused right now. Never before have I ever felt like this but I can't tell her. Not yet. Our fate is keeping me from becoming like her. I can't reveal my feelings towards her just yet. It wouldn't be right. As a HiMe I'll have only one thing to be true to and that's this destiny, this fate I've been fighting for.
I hadn't lied when I told her before that the reason I hadn't become like Nao was because I had Shizuru and the others to support me, to be with me when I needed friends to listen. I hadn't been completely truthful back then. Mai and the other HiMes have become close and great friends to me but you... I look at Shizuru. She's staring back at me as if she knows what I am about to say. You're really different. I tell myself as I try to find the heart to tell you more lies.
''Shizuru you were the first one to come to me when I was unable to believe in anyone.'' I start. ''But I can't have that feeling you wish I did. Even then, I am happy that you loved me. I also love you, Shizuru.'' Lies, all damn lies. No, I do love you Shizuru. Just because I had chosen my words carefully she'll never know the true meaning behind them. Atleast not for now. Not today.''So...'' I go on as I turn my attention to our fighting Childs behind us. I can see Duran's eyes focussed on me as well. I am sorry.
''DURAN!'' I yell. ''Load Silver Cartridge!'' Next to me I can hear her shocked gasp. I am truly sorry Shizuru but only one HiMe can win these games. I turn my head back to face her. I don't want to see the scence behind me any longer. As if my life depended on it, which indeed did, I pulled her closer to me. Embracing her. I don't know if she still thinks I hate her, maybe she misunderstood my feelings for her earlier but I am sure she knows now.
''I am happy.'' I hear you whisper. I just smile before closing my eyes. I no longer can hear Duran and Kiyohime behind us. It's over. For now. I've seen people disappear before and I know for a fact it should hurt. My heart should ache as I am disappearing but I don't feel a thing. All I know and all I can feel is this girl in my arms. Shizuru.
''I'll leave it up to you now, Mai.'' I add to my last words as slowly everything turns black...
The End
