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8/16/07...
yestrerday was kick a**. The new items for this month go hand in hand with my themes. i suspect they might eventually make it to legendary staus in the market place. who knows. Last noght felt a little off though. It felt like it was way later than it really was. at 11 i left gaia and went to whatch three episodes of Mushishi. It's still a kick a** anime. well now...I've done nothing today. kinda hear and their. been feelin kinda inder the weather. and a tad moody but nothing to bad. Me meds are working so well. Im still shocked that i was Bipoloar NOS. guess it's something that you never really get over. Oh well. i'll just pick up the peices and keep on going. like I always do. today I found out a friend of mine was in a bad car wreck a few nights ago. I never knew anything till today. He was airlifted last night. that means he is worse off than i originally thought when i first heard. My brother isint in a good mood because of it. neither am I.

Makes me wonder...am I doomed to just whatch all my friends die? god I still cant even sake off the past as it is. i lost a best friend in a car wreck when i was in the 9th or tenth grade. I can't remember what year. It's been too long to say the least.
I don't really like being me sometimes. I feel so alone sometimes. ******** just when things start to get good. It's just like my life. Just when I think things are lookin up I find that im forced back to being a lone wolf. hell you wanna know a secreat? I can't fight full contact or whole heartedly. I onced punched my brother in the nose over a ******** video game. A god danged stupid video game and system. cause i was too engulfed in the s**t. since that day that image of me hitting my brother then seeing him crying and asking me why....well that kinda s**t just sticks with you. he probably forgot but i didnt. yea. sometimes I truly wish i wasent me sometimes. can't help it though.
well time to log off. see ya next journal entry. ninja