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I'm going to hell. I know it now, but hey, at least I know what's going to happen to me. People tell me I'm such a good careing person. But just because I'm kind to people and I don't hurt anybody dosen't make me good dose it? If it did, then no one would pick on me, and hurt me. It's like everyword, everyone has ever said to hurt me left a scar on my soul. And now I'm just a big bleeding ball of scars. I have dreams alot about what hevan is like. I think It's a big play ground with swing that you don't even have to move your leg and you fly higer then ever. There are cherry blossom trees every where and a beach and across the water you can see pagodas and dojos and smell coffee and candy and bakeing cookies in the air. But.............everytimes I dream of this place..........I know............I'll never get there.................because my username dose have a meaning.................I didn't just change it because I couldn't spell the other one. I am a sinless sinner. I haven't done anything really wrong and everything I have done wrong was done in innncocents or I repented for. But bad things keep happening to me.............and everyone keeps suffering and this world becomes a pool of disgusting human sin......................and I know..........that when my eyes close for the last time...............I'll be burned in the city of dis, the relam of fallen angels..........and know..............I got what I deserved.