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What Resides Behind These Eyes
That mask I wear is now normal to me,
I know longer done it to please others!
That mask helps hide what I really am,
The beast that hides beneath my Hazel eyes.
I've lost the feeling of happiness and joy,
My world is all black and white.
I see no colors,
but I see that pain in others.
I try to make those people happy,
but that doesn't bring joy to me anymore.
My body is numb,
my heart made of ice.
I crave for the acceptance of others,
I live only to serve in their twisted world.
People try to help me,
but I'm beyond help.
I crave only for darkness and pain,
it reminds me I'm still alive.
My only soliditude is the moon,
it calls to the beast inside.
Allowing it to rise it muzzled head and howl,
but its dark vengeful eyes never forgive.
I roam this world in darkness and pain,
trying to bring order to my chaodic existence.
Always knowing in that lump of ice,
that resides in my chest.
That death is my only way to be free,
free from pain, lonelyness and hatred.
Is it so bad that I crave to rest me head,
six feet under this painful place?
That I wish to allow this beast,
a place to be without the bloodlust it feels everyday?
Away from this pitiful excuse of a human,
it resides in?
Is it wrong of me to want the freeness of the wind,
the power of the water?
Wishing,
Wanting,
Craving,
Makes me selfish in the eyes of others,
But when they know what resides behind these eyes!
I know they will wish, want and crave theses things also,
because the beast thats inside fights to be released!
To get its chance to reek havoc unto others,
as they did us!
 AuronAndLuluForever · Mon Sep 17, 2007 @ 10:40am · 1 Comments |
