Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

one day someone told me that i was a failure.
that as hard as i try ill never suceed.
they told me that im useless in this world and no one would miss me if i killed myself.
that life wasnt worth living because love is a lie.
they told me that people are weakness and pain is a strength.
they told me that when someone makes you mad you blame yourself because everything happens for a reason.
they told me to keep secrets, and stuff to myself.
and that each one makes the flame inside of myself grow bigger.
and that afraid if i tell, the flame will die out, and i will feel cold and empty inside.
and guess who told me this...
i did.
i convinced myself that this was true.
and this theory of mine killed me.
it made me make so many mistakes.
it made me think so negatively about myself and the ones i used to love.
but im not that ignorant now.
i think i have a good understanding about people, life and why it is the way it is, and who i am.
and i wont change for anyone's benefit.
i cant trust anyone.
i cant get too close.
and sadly no one can trust anyone either.
because in the end, your friends and lover wont be there for you.
neither will your family.
we entered this world alone, and we will leave it alone too.
-imaXemoXkid