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might as well show every one just how crappy i made everything...even to myself. i hurt the only one who would've been able to make me think differently, to change me, and what can i do about it? nothing...not a thing, but stand back and watch as my life comes to an end, let everything slip away. that's what i can do.

As cloudly water ebbs and flows, the sky seems ready to cry
Rememberance of days gone by leaves me cold beneath the surface

On this long night, a single voice scatters the dawn with a sigh
I know I can never regain the time that has slipped away

Mr. Deja vu, you aren't here
Since that day you became illusion
When I realized you were gone
The clock stood still, speak to me

Though you were stronger than all others, I knew your weakness
I watched over you on those nights where your scars seemed overpowering

You showed me true kindness for the first time
What I witheld cannot be given now; the moonlight frosts me over

I couldn't even say goodbye
Don't let me be alone
Even if there is no eternity
I'll believe in the red thread


Now it's my time
It's my time to dream
Dream of the sky
Make me believe that this place isn't plagued by the poison in me
Help me decide if my fire will burn out before you can breathe
Breathe into me

there's no way i can make things better now...no way i can make up for my mistake, even if i try. i know i;'ll only make things worse to the point where the only remedy there ever will be is my death...wait, i already have.

i can't keep doing this, destroying the things that made me happy, even for only a little while. Am i really meant to be alone for the rest of my life? if i am, then so be it.