man i realy took a hard blow to my self esteem tonight. Its hard to explain but i guess you could say im just not as good at s**t that i used to think i was good at. It all started out a little over two months ago. After volunteering at Yasumi-con 2007 (a local anime convention) and was observed by some possible employers at a new store that was funding the gaming room at the con. The stores name was N00bie Games, and it's first location was only twenty blocks away from my school. This presented me with the opportunity to give my School's Anime club (which I am President of) a place to hold gaming events. As soon as i could, i was helping the owners put together the temporary store, and even brought my officers from my club to help out (both of my VP's). Before you knew it, the store was open, and gaming was the biggest thing to do! Both my VP's and I worked under a type of "internship" for the store. Now prejudice aside, I must admit that my VP of gaming (George) is a total workaholic in ever sense of the word. Before I knew it, he was working over 16 hours a week even when he didn't need to. I was fine with this, but at the time it didn't matter because my grades were plummeting to the bottom, and i needed to restrict my leisure activities so i could focus on my studies and tutoring. This brings us to the past two weeks; My grades have barely been saved (if you can even considerer that) and i know have approximately three "D"s on my first nine week grades. George has been able to pass me grade wise in science (due to my laziness) and has recently been PROMOTED at n00bie games to the head of all interns. Now this is no big deal to me, until tonight. Tonight was the Anything Goes Anime Halloween Party, and n00bie games was hosting the gaming. So i was able to stay till the end of the party, the main entrepreneur of N00bie games was able to give me a ride home. The ride home was not a very welcomed one. Manuel (the head entrepreneur) decided to give me a lecture on how even though I was the first to offer help, and the first to set up shop, and show my most hardworking friends to him in hopes of employment, that I am all of a sudden upset that George gets a higher position than me. I decided not to respond, and hold my thoughts about the conversation. This brings me to my current state. I am inexcusably mad about the whole situation. I really don't know where to go from here. I've been nothing but help and because George hides his emotions in a way that he works like a robot is a form of "maturity" then i would rather be imature to the fullest extent. I need some ******** sleep.
Grimshadow64 · Fri Oct 26, 2007 @ 07:11am · 1 Comments |