When asked what she's doing, she calmly replies, "Waiting for him..."
I wouldn't say my life has fallen apart. I've just lost certain, large, pieces of it. I don't want to go to school anymore.. I've got no reason to go.
I doubt I'll be moved out by the time I'm 18.
I work full-time, making decent money. I'm not old enough to be taking over-time, but when I am, I'll be working a lot more.
At home, I'm alone. My parents stay to themselves, and I've got nothing but my thoughts.
At work, though, my mind is occupied. There are a few... issues, though.
I was driving into work this morning... David, an overnight worker who has adopted the name 'Mr. Sexy' thanks to one of my other friends at work, was walking into the building. I guess he picked up a daytime shift to help the overnight get ready for the holiday season. I don't really know. But for whatever reason, he was there.
He saw me as I drove by him. And winked at me. He watched me park. Waited for me at the door. He hugged me and said good-morning. It felt really good to have someone actually give me a hug... It's been a while.
I didn't think anything of his behavior until later on...
I was walking into the break room and caught a bit of their conversation...
Walter, David, and Dakari were in there.
Walter : "... She's got the finest booty I've ever seen on a skinny white girl"
Dakari: "I know, man" (As David is laughing and nodding.)
Me: ".... Are you talking about me again, Walter? /: "
Walter: "Only a little bit!"
Walter, my closest friend at work, is in his early twenties. He's an Asset's Protection lead, which means he gets to stalk around the store in civilian clothing, catching shoplifters.
He's been following me around the store it seems. Everywhere I turn, there he is.
He watches me, but not in a stalker-ish way. Everytime I take notice of his presence, he smiles, real big, and even though he's not supposed to talk or interact with the sales-floor workers, he always does something to make me smile.
Whether its popping out from behind a rack of clothes, or trying to tickle me...
He's really good at doing that thing where you walk behind something and it's like your on a staircase... You know what I'm talking about, right?
Anyway. He's always really happy to see me.
Always in the mood for a hug.
Always in the mood to try and assault me with his behemoth SUV while I'm going to my car.. Making me have to do a triple flip over the top of it.. And wave-dash into a near-by tree. ( Oh yeah. Inside jokes with Walter. )
Always in the mood to ruffle my hair.
Even at work recently, I've been letting my personal life get to me. I guess there are moments when I'm walking the floor, when it's obvious that I'm thinking about what happened this past week. When it's obvious that I'm depressed...
Walter is always there, trying to make me feel better. He's a really great guy...
Dakari just started working at Target, I trained him on the sales floor and on the cash register. In that two weeks, we really got to be great friends.
He's always giving me hugs, kissing my cheek, cracking jokes about my a**, and about how it's too bad I'm jail-bait.
He's really funny, and I love being around him. But he's a little too straight forward.
So far I've counted 6 guys watching me as I walk by them. 6 guys that act like they're interested in me. They're all in their twenties.
Walter. David. Antonio, Lol. Michael. Markis. Dakari.
Walter, Dakari, and David have become my best friends at work. They're the only ones I'm really concerned about...
The only people I'm worried about losing friendships with at this point if I break them off.
I might feel the need to rant about the other three sometime, too.
I really like them all... I really do. But it's just some of the things they're doing. The way they're acting around me, the way they look at me.
That makes it seem like they're interested in something more than that.
Something I'm not interested in at all...
I managed to get a crappy picture of Walter with my camera phone as he was walking out of the break room today... I'm going to get more of the others, and a better one of Walter, some time here in the near future.
Walter:
He's so cute in front of the big-a** bull's-eye.
Too bad my hands were shaking.
( I had just gotten done drinking the rest of Walter's VOLT, and I felt like I was on crack. )
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It's kind of sad when you're happiest at work. A place that most people can't wait to get out of.
Me... if I never had to leave, I probably wouldn't. I feel like I belong. I feel like I'm needed. But most of all, I feel like I'm loved. Like I would be missed if I left.
But. The place that I love to be at is becoming stressful in itself, with all of my friends becoming so strange towards me.
I just felt like I had to tell someone... Something. Writing it here makes me feel a little better.
Even if I'm telling something that no one will read.
I feel better already.
Sorry about the rant.
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So I'm gonna move over there and get a job at Target with yeww. Mmkay?
Alright.
x]
He's a cutie.
;]
Except. Josh has that shirt.
So whatever. You can have him. xD
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Loooveee,
Kayla.
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