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You see her in the hallway again. You weren't expecting to see her right here, right now...

Your heart begins to race. Everything around you seems to run in slow motion. You breathe in the sight of her, noticing every little detail, lost in the moment. She flips her long golden hair behind her shoulder. It nearly makes you melt.

When someone walking beside her (You're not sure who it is, you don't really pay attention to them) says something, she lets out a laugh. It's a beautiful laugh, and you even hear a little snort in it. She told you last year that she hated that snort. You think it's the cutest thing you've ever heard.

She continues walking, getting even closer to you. You can now hear your heart bashing against your ears as her beautiful brown eyes turn and see you.You look straight into them, completely lost. You can see her now...you can see everything...she's so close...

"Hey,"

she says to you. Her beautiful voice catches in your ears and almost seems to echo through you. It's so amazing...you have to catch yourself to stop from tripping over nothing.

"H-Hey," you manage to stammer.

And then she smiles.

It's one of her amazing bring-a-puppy-back-to-life smiles. And again, you find yourself nearly tripping over things that aren't there.

You look up again to see that she is gone, but you still hear her footsteps echoing behind you. You want to look back, but force yourself not to. You demand yourself to admit that you don't love her.

It doesn't work.

You know how you really feel. You know the name of this emotion.

Love.

But you also know something else. That she will never love you back.

And so you run.

You go barreling down the hallway at top speed, completely ignoring the surprised looks from those you pass. They don't matter. Nobody matters. You don't matter.

You reach the bathroom and run into a stall, slamming the door behind you. You sit on the toilet seat and begin to cry.

You know the name of this emotion, too.

Despair.

...The feeling that you're alone...that no one can save you...that she's so far away...

so far away...