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So I was talking with Yousie for a little while an hour or two ago and discovered a very shocking fact.

It seems that all these years of high school, my friends and I have been considered lezbians the entire time. None of us were ever asked out because of our group sweatdrop

Not only was this fact shocking but it was also a tad disheartening.

Let me try to describe my current week here in Santa Cruz

Ken: My name's rachel and i like to munch carpet

I'd say that sums it up all together right there. I've had more personal attacks on my sexuality this week than the amount of times a newb has played katamari demaci and screamed "I DON'T GET IT!" while rolling over a cow and laughing.

Yeah, its been difficult to keep myself from either:
a) crying

or

b) ripping the next offender's arm off

I was always leaning closer to option B...However, most of my offenders' arms are very strong and difficult to even move.

After hearing what Yousie had told me, I wasn't sure to laugh or to cry. So I was laughing with unshead tears in my eyes for about 30 minutes.

Its not only the fact that a lot of people in school assumed my own sexuality, but the fact that I've also learned only a week ago that my family has been thinking about it for a few years as well. And now, when a new friend of my eldest sibling immediately aims for lezbo jokes and everyone else catches on and plays around too......its a little nauseating, really. To realize that your sister WASN'T joking when she said "Thank god she's not gay!" after confessing a crush to the entire family. To discover that your own mother was worried about the idea for a couple of years. To realize that half of the No Relationships factor was due to the fact that the opposite gender thought you didn't swing their way...makes you feel as though you'll never find that certain someone because they've already passed and thought you weren't an option.....