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Want to know about my life well here you go... if you can handle it.
when I'm dead please remember me for the friend that would always smile, even when my heart is broken. And the one that could always brighten up your day, even if I could never brighten up my own.

After so long I finally found someone whom I love and feel like will make me truly happy and my best friend in the world hates em'. I don't want to lose my love whom needs me as much as I need em'. or my best friend who has been there for me for 3 years and I will love no matter what but feel like her love is fading for me. please God, I need help.

Why is it that people never believe me when I tell them about my life? Is it that bad? I don't know, it seems that I am alone these past few weeks. But I tell you, you may feel hated, but one day you will find out how many true friends you have, and how loved you really are. You know what I say, " When it gets dark enough, you can see the stars."-Coldsouledfreak

I smile when I'm sad and hurt. I cry when I'm happy. So next time you see me crying don't stop me if you see a smile. I've learned to laugh at myself and that is a big acheivement for me. I am starting to see how much I have changed some lives, and I am healing. As she told me: We are on the road to happiness. You'll never understand how much that means until you understand the struggle We've gone through.

Little piece of paper with a picture drawn floats down the street til' the wind is gone. My memories now are like the picture was then, once it's crumpled up it can't be perfect again.

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  • [02/18/08 06:29pm]

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    commentCommented on: Mon Mar 03, 2008 @ 06:17am
    o.o *hug* So sad...

    commentCommented on: Tue Apr 01, 2008 @ 03:29pm
    baby,you're the purpose in my life....it kills me to see you like this...I LOVE YOU ANYHOW!!!!! heart
    heart heart LOVE CASSIE heart heart

    doom song 101
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    doom song 101
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    commentCommented on: Sat Apr 05, 2008 @ 03:21pm
    sara what is god going to do? he has spoken to me...he knows what i'm going through and he dosent even bother to help me......like most people tell me....i don't deserve to live.........sorry,it's just that even though chrissy was mean to me she was still,at heart, my friend and the thought or her dying is KILLING me. plese when you read this make sure you remember me.....my hands are shaking as i type.....i've hit the bakespace button too many times and i'm scared sara,i'm really scared... sad

    commentCommented on: Wed Jun 25, 2008 @ 07:07pm
    hey sara.
    you are my ultimate friend. things havent been the same since we cant do our thing together.
    Since your my friend, I don't want you to feel the pain of your past.
    Leave that to others.
    The next day's morning starts a new millenia.
    Enter it with a smile and if you have to look back keep what you have learned so you don't make your mistakes twice.

    Anons Anonymous
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    Amber Be Damned
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    commentCommented on: Sat Aug 09, 2008 @ 02:20am
    I know this is late but...LET ME STATE MY OPINIONS DAMMIT!

    You shouldn't feel sad cuz Chrissy hates Cassie. Chrissy pretty much hates everyone. She's almost as picky as you. And you know darn well that Chrissy will never stop loving you.

    You are not hated beyond beleif. Most people that supposedly hate you probably don't even know you. I thought you said "Fine, hate me. But you can't hurt someone who doesn't care." Always remember that Sara.

    You can't dwell in the past. Don't let all the horrible memories affect you. Their gone. Their over. And they are never coming back.

    You take out your hurt or anger in a way that will hurt you more. I never wanna see you hurt yourself intentionally EVER. The only thing you need to do is talk about it. You always have a shoulder to cry on.

    You really need to notice how many people really truly love you. You need to beleive that everything will be alright. I'm not going to say things will get better. There is a rough road ahead. But it WILL be alright. You are the most stubborn person I know. You won't give in that easily. You'll definitely make your life one heluva good one!

    Anyone that gives you a hard time...is a hoebag. Always have been, always will be.

    It will all be okay, as long as you realize the people who have always been there for you. You always will. Who have been there, done that, gone to hell and back and had time for a snack. And know you are needed. Know you are loved. And know that if you died, the people would be a mess. Never say you want to die. Because when you die, I guarantee that you will wanna be alive again.

    I'm sorry that I wasn't always there. I know you may have needed me. But don't worry. I'm back, and I'm staying.

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