when I'm dead please remember me for the friend that would always smile, even when my heart is broken. And the one that could always brighten up your day, even if I could never brighten up my own.

After so long I finally found someone whom I love and feel like will make me truly happy and my best friend in the world hates em'. I don't want to lose my love whom needs me as much as I need em'. or my best friend who has been there for me for 3 years and I will love no matter what but feel like her love is fading for me. please God, I need help.

Why is it that people never believe me when I tell them about my life? Is it that bad? I don't know, it seems that I am alone these past few weeks. But I tell you, you may feel hated, but one day you will find out how many true friends you have, and how loved you really are. You know what I say, " When it gets dark enough, you can see the stars."-Coldsouledfreak

I smile when I'm sad and hurt. I cry when I'm happy. So next time you see me crying don't stop me if you see a smile. I've learned to laugh at myself and that is a big acheivement for me. I am starting to see how much I have changed some lives, and I am healing. As she told me: We are on the road to happiness. You'll never understand how much that means until you understand the struggle We've gone through.