Here's the newest events in my life:
1.) I'm planning a trip back to my frist hoem (no i'm not telling u where. lol) I'm scared senseless cause its been a long time since i've been back and its very daunting. I can't imagine what I'll see or experiance while I'm there and I know it's not going to go the way I have envisioned it but........ I know I'll have to make the best of the situation. Am I being a little to hard on myself for being this nervous or are my fears not in vain?
2.) Yes yes yes!!!!!!! I am still in love, lol. heart heart By this time I would've devised a way to get rid of the person I like, sorry thats just what I do. sweatdrop I normally don't let people into my life for the sheer fact that they tend to hurt me, take advantage of me, or leave. So normally my course of action is to pull out all the stops and drive the person away before they can hurt me. It may sound cruel and hurtful to you but its the only way I know to protect myself from people. But............. in the case of my bf........... he's broken through most of my defenses and insecruities and is still around and loves me inspite of the fact that I am insecure. He talks and listens and tells me everything will be alright and the funny part about it is that i believe him. Sometimes I wish I was a better match for him.... that my heart was complete enough to hand him a whole piece of me. But instead I'm forced to give hime small bits of me like a puzzle. I just hope he doesn't get sick of trying to put me back together again and disappers................. crying
 reinaita82 · Thu Mar 20, 2008 @ 06:16pm · 1 Comments |
