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Good Morning world....Good bye Heart.....

Today is Monday......
It starts out the same
I foces on the pain
and try to kill it before i start my day
for if i don't all i feel is emtyness for the day,
was i made to feel this hollow
sometimes it feels that there is nothing there.......
no beating.....
no pumping.....
just emtpyness
and pain.....
Blackness that drains....

but there are those that try to help
try to smile, laugh and
show good cheer......

You smile, you laugh and show good cheer....
but do you feel it
for some reason i know its there
it just doesn't reach all the places
that it should...

I smile because you smile
but it doesn't reach my eyes....

I laugh, when you laugh
but it doesn't reach my heart...

I show good cheer, when you do
but it doesn't reach my soul....

I show you love, when you love me
but is that feeling really there
or is it just being a chameleon....
to mimic yours.....

why...........