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You wrote this poem and I know you don't want me too. You don't wish me to view this but if you don't want people to see, plainly don't put in on the internet.

As A friend and a old love one of yours I say this.

You say that you are a person who don't care, who helps only themselves, and what I am about you say you won't have the courage to talk to me about.

You bring up god and we both know how you don't believe in him. You bringing him up though shows you are wishing you could, but I doubt you have such courage to do that. As for the devil you bring him up because you believe that actions you do are considered evil. No not evil, but foolish indeed.

I am not as weak as you think. The difference between you and me is that fact I take responsibility for all I do and do not do.

You can't cry because you rather bottle it up inside and never show it. Your nature is that of everyone else. So you are not so different as you thought. Everyone wishes to be different, to never answer to anyone and hold their own.

I am here to tell you that, you have never been able to hold your own. Someone has always been there and to accept that is to understand your strength in yourself.

You are not a nice person not because you can't be, but for the fact you choose not to be and for that that makes you weak.

You have my sympathy for you can not take simple fact.

Where is my strength, my will power?

My strength deals in that I understand that emotion drives my will power.
What I want I get, What I like I may end up loving. And because I know this, my power will exceed beyond all.

What makes you lack courage is all that you can not control or make to fit your world, you do away with. Like me. You lacked the courage to stand at my side. You lack the courage to take the bull by it's horns when problems came our way. You said that you tried but if so, none of this would have been so difficult for you.

You feel that weakness coming on know it is me. I am your weakness because you love me and for that I am being punished. All for the fact you feel guilty knowing that the person who you loved that loved you, you throw to the wolves because you couldn't handle it.

Loving someone means you will love them and face their weaknesses. For this I knew I loved you and would do anything to help you in anyway. I told you if you were being hurt by another person, or something I would stand in front of you so that I would take all the pain. If you needed support I would stand behind you to support every step you take. And if you needed a friend, a companion, I would stand next to you to hold your hand. You can't deny I haven't been there.

I put you before all others. Even my own blood. Because of this all that I stand for I am truly proud of who I am. Can you even say the same?

I allow myself to love because my love I know can do the such wonderful things when given to the person I choose should have it. I still allow you to have my heart, my love and my soul.

You lie to yourself everyday that you don't love me. But your eyes say otherwise. I know the truth. The truth is you run away even from those who help you, love you. And for that you lack courage, And if only you could take a step in all this from running away will I be truly amazed. I dare you to love, for once I dare you to actually take the bull by the horns and face all that you feel makes you weak. If you back out I will know then that courage is just another pretty word you can't simply be apart of.