Yah know. Lately. I realize something.
It's the only something that I know I want to do for my life.
And I think It's something I want more than anything.
I want a stable family. To....know what it's like for once to have a...a real family.
Yah know?
No halfs. No broken pieces....no reason to be stronger than another from pain.
I do admit, yes movies do have a strong effect on me [I just wanted Juno] but I suppose it's mainly because they make me think from different points of view. I think it's good tho'. Because it teaches me how to think over things. Think long and deeply about them.
Im 16. Who gives a s**t? It dosen't mean I am any less knowledgable about what I want...*Smiles*
I have never been so happy in my life.
No drama....
No pain...
Small fits of frustration, yes. But isn't that what life as a whole consists of?
Everything now is turing simple for me. Still ruts in my road from before, but time is mending them and I am glad to walk down that smoothing road now.
I do know. I do do do know for sure that I am in love....
True love.
Perhaps thats why I feel so light about it. Because it's so unreal. Too perfect.
*Sighs*
"So. What did you wish for on your candles eh?"
"What? You know the rules! I can't tell you or else it wont come true!"
"Whaaat? I'm super lucky, you know that so if yoiu tell me maybe it has an even better chance!"
"Nope. Sorry! This one I want to be true on my own...."
'I'm sorry...but. I can't say to you. I want it to be kept on my own. I want to be happy....to remain happy. That's what I wished for.'
Ha....you know. I can image Kelli and I standing in front of 'BabysR'Us' in about 5 or so years with blank, fearful, and confuzed expressions.
'Dude....it's like....pink. And. Perky....'
'Hey hey! I KNOW. But I NEED to look around, alright?! And your duty as my best friend to be dragged along in this. *Drag drag*'
'NOOOOO. *Claws at the door*'
Maybe. Most who read this will think im getting ahead of myself. But you know what?
I have a dream. An ambition in life....something I do want.
Dosen't a sucsessful goal begin with a strived dream?
So I tell you who think that to go b***h to someone else. Because unless the world ends or I am left deserted, I will strive by all means to leave my reality and run for my want with my heart at whole.
I want a happy future.
A sucsessful life.
A normal family.
A unbroken home....
Is that really such a bad thing for someone to wish for?
I want normalcy.....I want a life that means something.
Not a life easily regreted.
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ROTFL.
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Yah. That would be me. ._.;;
'WHY. Why is it so fluffy and cute and adorable!?'
'Because, hey isn't this cute?'
'*in a corner hypervenalating* So much...why can't. They have emo babies? EmosRus. I mean. No wonder all the kids are turning into faggots, IT STARTS AS BABIES. VOTE FOR EMOSRUS.'
'*completely ignoring, shopping blissfully*'
Hahhaaaa.
No, I want to be with you in all the best of life's moments!
Even if you must take me kicking and screaming for a couple. ;D
But really. I want you to walk down your own path, whatever it may be. I'll lay out a red carpet on it whenever you want me to, kay?