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okay i sorta have to get this out of my system,i'm having seroius issues of which school i'm going to go to.if i go to Canturbury,i could eventualy lose my freinds.like i've been to 1..2..3..4...5 schools,and i don't see or talk to any of the ones from my old schools,and if i don't go to Canturbury people like my art teacher are going to be saying things"what a waste"and things like that.and Canturbury is an art school,and i'm going to have to decide soon........*is stressed out*and i've been finding my art talents bit annoying,yes it sounds weird,but still it is.my mother keeps showing off my art and saying how good i am,and people in my class do two,and saying things like how i got my scholar ship package and stuff.i've only won 2 art contest,and that's not too much....and still they're making a big point out of it.it embaresses me,and sometimes used to be shown off.people keep asking me to draw them pictures,but i don't really get anything from it,sometimes they don't even say thank you. scream grrrrr....sometimes it's so annoying.some of my freinds are trying to convince me to go to Canturbury,they say i'll make new freinds there and what about my old freinds?i don't want to lose them like the others......... sad then there's the other group of freinds saying,come to ADHS!!!it's cool there,we'll be able to hang out and everything!i do want to go,but then i'm sorta afraid of how other people are going to react.but the truth is im terrified of how my art teachers are going to react.......they helped me making my portfollio and everything,and so are my other teachers....*shivers*it's hard,and now it's sorta stupid making this journal cause now it seems harder to chose cause i've thought of other things........awwww crap........*sighs*i am sorta making a big point out of this,but still it's true.and i suck making freinds at school,i'm like one of those super shy people,so it's hard.and i can guarantee i'm going to get lost in high school alot.....*got lost when went with brother when he was looking at the school to decide where he was going to go*i hate going to other schools,my childhood was slightly killed when i had to keep switching to different schools,and no i wasn't expelled.stupid school boards.........god damn't why can't there just ge one school so it's not such a pain deciding where to go.but that would be one BIG school,that i would definitly get lost in.well it's getting sorta late here so i'm going to go now,and i can gaurantee no matter which high school i go to the choice i made is seriously going to haunt me for a looooooooooooong time.