Ok so we've been out on summer brake for three weeks now...
So much s**t has happened. I finally had my nervous breakdown. I've felt it coming on for some time. What with mom dieing and all...
I finally came clean. I told her everything about me that she didn't know. I told her that I'm an alcoholic, that I've been addicted to drugs for some time now. And she just sat there. Then gave me some stories. I couldn't help it. I wound up crying and asking for my dad. He's been dead for 3 years now. He would of been so disappointed in me... So I decided to give it all up. No more weed. No more Booze. none of that. Because my Dad...that and everyone else in my life. I've been nothing but A downer for them. So I'm bringing myself up.
To top this all off I haven't seen the love of my life once since this brake started *sigh* not that it really matters though. She's usually there for me though. And I can't thank her enough.
Depression seems to be a constant companion this summer. Usually I can beat that ******** down with sheer will power. Alas, my will seems to be of a weaker Varity this summer.
... ... .... ..... So yeah no deep philosophical meaning behind my entry today....just me being sad.
Commissar White · Fri Jun 27, 2008 @ 11:40am · 0 Comments |