I am not with Whyred. He's out of my life. Permanently.
Thank god.
Instead i will be delving into deep philosophical and metaphysical meanings of existence.
A much more productive use of time.
So yeah I'm going through this journal.
And I realize I've changed a lot.
I've rambled on about two people here.
Brittany and Zach. Both of which are permanently out of my life.
I at one point was straight.
And for a bit I thought I was bi.
Now I am gay.
I used to be severely depressed. Over a girl.
I learned to no longer be depressed and just get pissed instead.
I'm much better at that anyways.
I used to despise America and have no faith in man.
Now faith in man is all I have and I love my country more then I love myself.
I used to avoid Drugs for fear as to how it would affect my body.
Now I see the potential medicinal and psychological benefits Of such things.
I used to be a child.
I am now an older child.
In the end the only meaning to anything is change. It's the natural state of things.
the world is constantly changing. It's in constant chaos. But an ordered chaos. And as a human I am a being of change. Change is the essence of existence. and no matter what happens, my beliefs. My person. We'll always be changing.
 Commissar White · Tue Sep 29, 2009 @ 05:03am · 2 Comments |
