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Dan - Dream
I had this dream where I was boxing with this huge black guy and I had these rubbery black fingerless gloves. Afterwards I was explaining to him how awesome the gloves were for boxing, they are all bouncy and good for punching. I was really really sweaty and I ended up running thew the hall ways of a school and sliding on my hands. I was sliding all thew the halls untill I got to this little set of stairs that led up to the first floor. I'm pretty sure I was in the basement. There was a curved wall at the bottom of the stairs and I slid up to it on my hands and ran around it into a spin. Then I walked up the stairs and Dan was coming down with his new girlfriend. I started talking to him but then I woke up. I called him that day as well and he was home, and I was like, I had a dream about him because I knew he was back O.o

Mike Lee - Dream
The dream is kinda mixed up now, but I remember a few things. Being in bed with mike lee, and him trying to get me to put his p***s in my mouth with this logic. "Blue I need you to check the temperature for me" "you know that spot between your teeth and your cheek, just put it there!"
Then I ended up flashing this person in what seemed to be a pedicure shop... She tried to attack me or something and I did a back flip... I was wearing a robe with nothing underneath.

Complex Secks
From the sound of things I feel like Megan wants me to seduce her into having sex...
Shes telling me a story about our future, and I get her to have sex with me even though she doesn't really want to. I think she wants it but she doesn't want to be responsible for it, its been like this before.
That turned out to be right, in a way, I think...

My mind is pacing thew an empty room with walls made of tv's that play back memories
I contradict my feelings, and what I know is right
Endings are added to my words as things come to an end
I turn around the walls follow close behind me, I'm a rodent in a ball
Images cycle; I'm forced to see what I leave behind
Fighting for what I believe in has gotten me less than nowhere in life
Where is less than no where? Somewhere? Anywhere? Home?
I try to stand up and push against the current of life, but I tire out, and drown
I live out my worst fears, and I work for nothing
The only thing I need to earn in life is a living

Blue Welsh
I'm Blue, I do what I want, as long as I have the guts. I'm kinda shy at times, but I'm an attention whore sweatdrop
I like Emotes they show I have emotions. I like to state the obvious, I have been ever since I was very very young. "Mom, I think I'm going to sweat now"
I pretend I don't care what anyone thinks of me, but I do, I just analyze what I'm told about myself and use it to better myself. Sometimes I can't hide that I care what people say about me and I over react to s**t that I shouldn't care about. I'm trying to break all of my fears. I want to live free. I want to fly. I have no secrets, I can give up almost anything but my freedom. I don't get too attached to anything but people, I don't know if thats a good thing or not. I want to be crazy and still be viewed as mature. I like to be complemented, but I don't want to have a big ego. I try to be humble. I try to be nice to everyone, cept my sister, but I'm nice to her sometimes wink
I love my girlfriend, even though shes kinda crazy heart
I like to have pictures of my self but I don't want to be a picture whore. I like to parkour but people like to laugh at me when I fall, and tell me to stop showing off when I do good. Sometimes I wear headphones and ignore them so I can practice. Dancing man is my hero, he does it too. There are so many things I want to do but I'm to shy, scared, or lazy to try. I need to break all of my fears, heights is a minor fear in comparison to other fears I have. My heart stops every time I get a message from my girlfriend, the anticipation makes me think my heart lost a year from the impact. I'm afraid of what I don't yet know. I'm not good at saying how I feel, more fears holding me back. I'm not good at writing either. I think I'm stupid but I try to tell myself that I'm smarter than I think, and at times I try to teach myself new things. I don't like being told I'm stupid, I bother myself enough about it, it just confirms the idea to me. I used to not listen to linken park because my friend told me they were posers, ******** that I know what my ears like, I don't care what people think, I'll listen to what I like. Although I have a fear of sharing my music with people and them not liking it. My friend also told me I'd never know what love is, but if I never try how will I know. I have a feeling for what love is, I'll fight for my idea of love. I'm nice to people that I don't like, I'm nice to people I expect I wouldn't like. Its better that way, it keeps my conscience clean. Spell check teaches me how to spell, see I'm teaching myself everyday. I'm jealous of almost everyone, how smart people are, how nice, or generous people are, I want to be the best. I don't want to be number one though, I need someone to look up too. I feel like writing this will do some good in the world, but its just a pointless rant. With enough people I could sell this s**t as a religion. In my mind s**t like religion just hold you back in life. If anything gets in my way I run it the ******** over, kindly. I'm not good at living other peoples lives, I'm not even good at living my own. My will power has gone to s**t, I need it to be winter, I don't move in the summer. I can be superstitious, I like to tell myself I make things happen, like, omg it rained because I was taking a shower, or I shocked the computer and the power level went up, I did that! It makes life more fun. I like to live life with no regrets. I hate tv, my sister just turned it on, and now I want to watch it, oh, she just tripped over some wires, knocked a bunch of s**t over and spilled her soda. See that, karma, I asked her nicely not to turn the tv on and she did. I believe in Yin and Yang, if life is shitty, it will get better in equal proportion, or if life is shitty, I did something to deserve it. I believe in destiny, sometimes I go with the flow, and sometimes I fight like hell to get what I want. I can bend my destiny and shape it anyway I please. I cannot die. I'm 18, I had sex with a 15 year old, who I love, and I enjoyed it. I want to do it again, but shes wants to wait. I have to respect her wishes, I'd kill myself if I got her mad at me for something that seems so important her. I cry of stupid things, like sex, its important to me, in a way. I don't know myself well enough to know how it is important to me. I love myself, and I hate myself, I tell myself I can't die, that I'm a demi god. I think that if you believe in anything hard enough you can make it happen. I scream at myself to get myself hyped up. I'm afraid of using my time poorly.
I think I'm done... ::Brain Spazm::

I wrote this for Megan, I kinda wanted to post it.