What a day. I’ve got a splitting headache, and the feeling that everything is going to go to s**t.
Any ways wanna hear about my day? I'm now officially more depressed then I have been in a long while. I was having the best day I’d had in awhile. I got to see Brittany, which just made everything I’ve been putting up with seem far away. It was one of the times of pure bliss. Sure she was hitting me, pulling my hair, and being disappointed in me as a person. But she was with me, and all that stuff doesn’t bother me any ways. (I kinda like it >_< wink . My little brother, bless his soul, finally was able to read my lips after mouthing to him godless amounts of times “what the ******** man?” Didn’t get why I was saying it though. Finally Brittany told him to go find my cat. He did and brought the cat back. He left shortly afterwards. Anyways we cuddled for a bit…I think she’d kill me for saying that, but I don’t really care. She kept calling me a woman though. I didn’t mind, but in retrospect I was kinda taking the woman’s role in all that. Damn it. Anyways fast-forward a bit and she’s leaving. Before she leaves she gives me a kiss that implants the feeling we aren’t going to see each other again. I don’t want that. I love her so much, and I don’t want to leave her. And I don’t want her to leave me. It is hard enough to go as is. But after today I think it’s going to be that much harder. I know she doesn’t feel the same way about me as I do about her. I can’t help my feelings. I wish I could. This would be so much easier then. *sigh* I’m one sad and confused rabbit at the moment. This is all so much. Almost to much. But hey, she knows how I feel. And she doesn’t seem to want to leave me. So I think I should be fine. I’m just a little depressed is all.
Commissar White · Sun Jul 20, 2008 @ 06:40am · 0 Comments |