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So Lately,
I have been going through a lot of things lately, and they keep building up and well, I'm not my 'hyper annoying' self. And when I look around for someone to talk to, I feel as though I just can't talk to any of my friends. My best friend is going to college, and the rest of my friends....I don't think they notice or care. Yes I know, it sounds like one of my previous journal entries, but...it feels different. I'm older, more mature, and I can notice things more. I notice that I'm usually alone. Sometimes I cause that myself, but not all the times. I really wish I could talk to someone who I know wouldn't put half of my feelings down, but I also don't want to burden my friends with my feelings. Then there's the part of me that feels, "If they can't bother to figure me out, then why should I spill what I feel to them?" I wish I could talk though, but really, there isn't someone I can tell all my problems to. Not anymore, so now I'm silent, and completely different from who I was a mere few months ago. I also have a feeling that a lot of my friends LIKE me this way, because I'm quieter and less annoying. Even if it seems better this way, it isn't me.
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