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I told him. I told him how I felt. And he liked me back. But he sent me a message later that night, which I didn't get until the next day. He wants to stay friends. I can't even begin to tell you all how I felt. He said the sweetest things to me in that letter, and yet broke my heart, a second time. I know he didn't mean to, so I told him it'd be ok to stay friends, but inside, everytime I see him, I want to die. Not actually die, but it hurts so much. If he likes me back, why doesn't he want to date? I want to cry, scream and yet I can't. If I appeared hurt, I know he would be hurt too, and I don't want that, so we have to continue as friends, no matter how much I want to cry after seeing him. The mask I wear around him is getting tattered.