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The Noise in my Head

When I close my eyes everything is gone, out of sight out of mind. flashes of light, squiggles and my own world exists only then, but the noise of reality is still there, sirens screaming the clutter of a room, the pains and joys of people good and bad, weddings and funerals, I can hear it all, still echoing through my head. Disrupting my world, my dreams, my life. So I close my ears, the sounds slowly murmur away into nothing, silence then again I close my eyes, the swirls of light and then my world again, empty just me, everybody gone, and then screaming, tortured souls, people tormented, memories past replaying again and again, this is my world, its pain, and when I open my eyes the screaming is still there, I open my ears and my world echoes through, my world interrupts reality interrupts it all. Always in my head, a smile of bliss on my face and a world of torment in my head. This is the noise in my head, the sound of my dreams and the song in my heart. The noise in my head, the sound of so many, the noise.. the noise…. some body please stop the noise! NOISE! A BULLET TO END THE SCREAMS! BULLET IN THE BRAIN TO END THE PAIN! TO END THE SCREAMS AND THE NOISE!