I re-started my journal for the sole reason of having a place to store my dreams. Namely, the ones I feel a certain kind of bond to. I wish I had a wider vocabulary so that I could justly define that bond. Something about these dreams just.... makes them more than a dream, and they are all connected. Over the 12 or so years I have been having them, they have continued to revolve around a particular setting I have come to call "Dusk". Not the dusk before night either, and not the dawn before day for damn sure. Dusk as I refer to it, is a place.
Dusk is a..... town... city.... island.... country.... I don't quite know for sure yet. I have been there many times, and, by "been there" I do indeed imply that these dreams are incredibly vivid. In fact they often leave me disoriented when I wake from them, asking myself a few times in the past "how did I get back here?", referring to my room and bed. Something else I feel pressed to get out of the way ahead of time are the sub-settings of Dusk. There are different versions, all of them involving either me being completely alone (at least humanly alone, I have seen other "things" about me though), me with other people (both people I know in my real life, and people I seem to not know at all or know deeply though I have never seen said persons in my real life before), and me with.... well... ghosts would probably be the best word for them.
With those settings in mind, I have only seen Dusk 3 ways; completely dark in the depths of night, during twilight, or wrapped in a dense fog during one of the two previous times. I might have seen it during real daylight, but... it was probably a fog setting if I did, because I don't remember it. And I remember every one of these dreams clearly. I used to write them down on paper as soon as I awoke, or text them to someone I could trust to remind me of them later so I would not lose them. I'd just like to add she's done a spectacular job of that so far.
As I have grown I have begun having these dreams much more frequently, the details of some of the later ones a bit smudged but for some reason my memory works in weird ways. The longer time passes, the more clearly I can recall some things. When I was around 10 or so I believe was when I had my first journey to this world. Back then, one or two trips a year was all I could manage. However, after I moved to another state for a while when I was 18, I had a multitude of trips during my eight month stay. Upon my return home, they kind of... just died off. For a good while I thought maybe I had "finished it" (I say finish because I feel I have some mission or something to do there) while I was living there, and missed doing whatever I was supposed to do. As I said before, the details of some of those were a bit blurry and I am waiting for them to return. This was probably due to a mixture of both my being in an unfamiliar place so far from the people I had known all my life, as well as the events occurring during that time (which I will not get into here).
I don't remember the exact frame of time, I believe it was a few if not several months before I had a real trip back to Dusk. But after that they occurred much faster, and much more vividly. Today, once a month seems average though more have occurred and sometimes none at all. I have woken up in places where I do not remember lying down to sleep, as well as on my feet, twice. Probably five or six times my eyes have shot open right at the end of a trip, just a few seconds before my alarm could go off to wake me, or just as my phone or desktop would light up with a phone call or important message from someone. At first, these things freaked me out deeply. Now, they are commonplace to me. I don't know what that says about me, maybe you already think I'm crazy (whoever you are). But regardless what you think of ME, all I want from you is your trust as you read this that it is all true. This is not a fabrication in attempt to get a nice fiction novel going in the future (though that would be a nice idea). This is quite simply a prose, and all I ask is that you take it as such. With that in mind, I hope to have the first of my trips typed up and posted tomorrow evening.
Thank you for your time.
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I'd just like to add you are doing a spectacular job of everything so far.
Like making this one smile.