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WHOA ...

I JUST GOT THE MOST HORRIBLE FEELING.
// CHILLS

THAT'S NO GOOD ...
SOMEONE I KNOW.
IS GOING TO DIE?

I HATE MY INTUITION.
IT SCARES ME.
ON MY BIRTHDAY, I GOT THIS SAME FEELING ABOUT MY GRANDMOTHER ...
2 DAYS LATER ... DEAD.
SOMETHING LIKE THAT REALLY ******** WITH YOUR HEAD.
SO I TRY NOT TO PAY ATTENTION ...

BUT IT'S ALL LIKE,
"HEY, LISTEN!"
LIKE THAT STUPID, ANNOYING FAIRY FROM THAT ZELDA GAME.
YOU'RE JUST AS ANNOYING AS THAT STUPID NAVI ...
&, WELL ... MAYBE I'D PAY MORE ATTENTION ...
IF YOU TOLD ME SOMETHING I WANTED TO KNOW ...

LIKE MAYBE WHO THIS IS HAPPENING TO.
WHEN & WHERE IT HAPPENS.
WHAT THE ******** I CAN DO BESIDES WORRY.
BECAUSE OBVIOUSLY WORRYING ABOUT THINGS MAKES EVERYTHING SO MUCH BETTER.

BUT NO. THERE IS ONLY THE FEELING.
& IT IS NOT MINE. IT IS SOMEONE ELSE'S FEELING.
I CANNOT TELL WHO IT IS.

NOT COADY OR VEE ... NO.
NOT YOU ... [BEAN]
IT IS 3 NOW, & NOT JUST THE 2 ANYMORE.
I'VE GOTTEN USED TO IT, FINALLY.

I PICK UP ON YOU 3 MOSTLY ... & YOU 3 ARE SAFE.
WHICH IS A RELIEF ... YOU 3 KNOW ME THE BEST.
& IF ANYTHING HAPPENED TO ANY OF YOU ...
I DON'T EVEN WANT TO THINK ABOUT IT.
BUT IT'S EASY TO DISTINGUISH BETWEEN YOU 3 ...
BECAUSE I LOVE YOU 3 THE MOST, I SUPPOSE.
IT'S EVERYONE ELSE I KNOW THAT THROWS ME OFF.

COADY - CALM [ALMOST ALWAYS]
VEE - TIRED, UNSATISFIED, LONELY
BEAN - RESTLESS, & SOMETHING I HAVEN'T FIGURED OUT YET.
... INCONSOLABLE MAYBE. [I WILL FIGURE YOU OUT.]

SO I WILL SIT & THINK.
"WHO ARE YOU? ..."
UNTIL YOU ARE DEAD ... BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
I'M SORRY.

THIS WILL BE A SLEEPLESS NIGHT.

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