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BUT I'M ****** HONEST A CONFESSION: SUPPRESSION OF EMOTION MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I AM ONLY HALF-HUMAN. LIKE I'M A **** CYBORG OR SOMETHING. BUT I STILL BLEED LIKE ANYONE ELSE. I JUST WOULDN'T SHOW YOU OR TELL YOU. BECAUSE I AM ****. ANOTHER CONFESSION: I AM SO ****. I POUR KEROSENE ON EVERYTHING I LOVE ... & WATCH IT BURN. & I DON'T KNOW WHY. ALL I CAN SAY IS, "I'M ****. MY HEAD IS SERIOUSLY ****." & WHILE I'M CONFESSING AWAY, THERE'S THIS TOO: THIS IS JUST **** SICK ... I WATCH. I LISTEN. I ANALYZE ... EVERY **** WORD & EXPRESSION. & WHY? SO THAT I KNOW YOU. OH, BUT NOT JUST THAT. SO THAT I KNOW WHAT HURTS YOU, WHAT MAKES YOU INSECURE, WHAT MAKES YOU CRINGE. SO I CAN USE IT AGAINST YOU. SO THAT I KNOW EXACTLY WHERE TO KICK YOU WHEN YOU ARE DOWN. BECAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD. DISGUSTINGLY. YES, IT'S TRUE. BAKIMOTO ... [MONSTER** IN JAPANESE]

Posted by: Deciduous Peaches2 Mon Dec 01, 2008 @ 10:49am

I DON'T MAKE SIGNS
& I HIDE TEXT
I AM NICE!!
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BOYCOTT THE WORD "SWAGGER"
I'M JUST ******** PEACHES

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B-B-B-BeanCup
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Mon Dec 01, 2008 @ 11:03am

Are you saying you will do this to me?

Deciduous Peaches2
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Mon Dec 01, 2008 @ 11:26am

NO. I WON'T DO THIS TO YOU.
I LIKE YOU TOO MUCH.

B-B-B-BeanCup
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Mon Dec 01, 2008 @ 11:30am

The moment you try is the last moment you will hear from me.

I will not burn in those flames.

Deciduous Peaches2
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Mon Dec 01, 2008 @ 11:31am

I WOULDN'T TRY.

B-B-B-BeanCup
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Mon Dec 01, 2008 @ 11:35am

I will believe you, if only because I know just how much depth you really have. You are not a monster. I have never seen you become this person you believe you are. Maybe I'm blinded by a thousand miles and a computer screen, but I cannot imagine you being this.... sadistic. Especially not to someone you care about.

You are intense, that is true. If someone were to hurt you... they would deserve this. And they would get it. But would you really do that to someone who didn't?

Deciduous Peaches2
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Mon Dec 01, 2008 @ 11:52am

THERE ARE 3 PEOPLE WHO I WOULD NEVER DO THIS TO.
YOU KNOW WHO THEY ARE.
BUT JUST FOR CLARIFICATION:
YOU, KOE-D, VEE ...
HAVE NEVER ******** ME OVER.

& I WOULD HONESTLY FEEL HURT IF ANY OF YOU DID.
CRUSHED.
BUT I WOULD NOT ******** HURT YOU.
I WOULD NOT TRY.
BECAUSE YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME.

B-B-B-BeanCup
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Mon Dec 01, 2008 @ 11:55am

has everyone in your past besides the three of us ******** you over?

Deciduous Peaches2
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Mon Dec 01, 2008 @ 12:17pm

YEAH. PRETTY MUCH ...
IN SOME WAY, MOST PEOPLE I'VE KNOWN HAVE ******** ME OVER PRETTY BADLY ...

B-B-B-BeanCup
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Mon Dec 01, 2008 @ 12:18pm

I'm sorry.

Deciduous Peaches2
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Mon Dec 01, 2008 @ 12:44pm

YOU HAVE NO REASON TO APOLOGIZE TO ME.

B-B-B-BeanCup
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Thu Dec 04, 2008 @ 04:53am

I'm sorry that people have treated someone so amazing, so wonderful, and behind all of the shell, so... real in such a terrible way.

Deciduous Peaches2
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Thu Dec 04, 2008 @ 05:02am

I ... I HAVE NO WORDS.
JUST THANK YOU.

B-B-B-BeanCup
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Sat Mar 14, 2009 @ 05:33pm

I take all of it back. You are a monster, devoid of feeling, sympathy, and love.

everything you said to me that meant something was a lie. every little piece of comfort I took in knowing you was also a lie. you lied to me, used me, and then left me for reasons I still don't know. maybe just for the fun of it.

you doused me in your metaphorical kerosene and tossed the match at me, but you forgot one thing.

I will not die in your flames. I will not become another used up husk like the other people you have undoubtedly fooled into believing your lies, because I am, unlike what I thought before, _not at all like you._ You are dead inside, if this is what you do for fun. I hope the next one that you fool figures you out before it's too late.

Sometimes I wish you had stayed dead that day. If that story was even true.

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