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Susan.......
it was almost a year ago, last january, when i was sitting at my computer on a boring wednesday night. i was on gaia online, bored, so i decide to go into the "towns" game (AKA the portion where you can run around using your avatar). eventually i met and started talking with this girl, her name is "susan" she told me, we get to talkin nd she starts tellin me she recntly been through some rough times. her...old boyfriend was....quite a fiend, abused her, told her she wasn't worthy, as well as....other things. she was very torn up about him, because in addition to what he did to her, he left her. she was incredibly torn about this, thought she was ugly, unworthy, and worthless, so i comforted her. she eventually sent me a picture in the conversation, she was not ugly believe me, i couldn't understand why she would think that. we talked a little more and i gave her a little wisdom and life advice, before i had to go she thanked me, and i couldn't help but feel that i actually helped her. we hadn't talked since then until july when she switched accounts and sent me a message telling me that, and that was the last i heard from her for a while. one night in september, i was just hangin out, when i go over to the computer to check my email, i see that she's on gaia (which was surprising to me cuz i thought she'd given up on gaia). so i just thought "huh, whatdya know?" and just continued on my merry way. the very next day as i walked to school, i was listening to a song on my mp3 player (pull the curtain by sum41), i don't know what it was about this song but it just made me think of her, and since i'm the kind of guy who listens to the same song over and over again i couldn't really stop thinkin about her. that same day, there is this girl in my class, she looked like susan, so as i was looking at her i remembered the picture that she had sent me when i realized that she looked like susan, it just kept the thoughts rollin. that night i messaged her on gaia and we got to catchin up. last month she sent me a message again, it was a link to myspace and she said "i entered a yearbook contest, i know i'm not pretty but, please vote for me" it was a contest to decide who's prettier, now it was her against some guy, in her picture she looked cute, and since i'm not gay i obviously voted for her (she ended up winning ). so i replied to the message telling her she didn't look ugly and i actually thought she was hot. since then we been talkin more. we've gotten to know each other quite well, shortly after she sent me that message she told me she had a crush on me, i had a crush on her as well. since then we've.....fallen for each other. i love her and she loves me. i would give anything to be with her, but here i am in canada, and there she is in michigan. but lookin at the map it looks like she's probably only 10 or 11 hours away. when i turn 16 in june i'm going to get my driver's license and i'm goin to the states, i want to see her, hold her, kiss her....and i know she wants that to. i've never actually felt like this before, i've had crushes on people, thought i was in love with them, but now that i feel this way i know those were just dillusions. i've never even had a gf in my life before, so at first i was shy to tell her how i felt about her. but i've never had anyone love me the way she does, and i never loved anyone like i love her. she's the first thing i think about when i wake up, she's the last thing i think about when i go to sleep. at school she's all i can think about in class. i just wanna be with her so bad, what i wouldn't give to be with her in michigan or for her to be here with me. there were times when i thought my love wouldn't exist, that just maybe i wasn't meant for anyone..how wrong i was. i feel so happy just thinking about her. but, i must wait, wait before i can go see her, it's gonna feel like forever, but it'll all be worth it when i'll be able to hold susan in my arms
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