My mind spins in circles as I picture her face. Wondering how much time she has agonized over what her feelings really mean. Is it that I'm not there? Is it simply the distance making things worse than they really are?
My eyes fill with tears at the thought of her pain. The heartache she suffers because of me. But does thinking this and remaining make me selfish? Knowing in my heart that I can make her happy in time. Is it worth her pain?
I suffer as well at night, wishing she was beside, wishing to smell her sweet breath on my skin as she sleeps safely in my arms. The distance trying to rip away at my faith, but I will not yield to such pain. Insignificant to my feelings for her.
So what do I do? Knowing that she doubts how can I prove to her that I'm more than just a passing intimacy? Knowing full well that my love is true, how can I even allow those thoughts to plague my mind as they do. They tear wounds into my heart even deeper over the ones left before, the ones that haven't quite fully healed.
Those scars that had started to heal with her love being torn into again. Knowing that she would never hurt me...that she never wants to hurt me. I don't know what to do.
All I can do is go by what I know....but is it really enough?
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