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Sense I was five years old I've been obese. I've had to live with it with absolutely no help, no true encouragement, I was truly on my own. I've attempted to change myself, I failed each time miserably, I would get to the part where you gain a couple of muscle pounds and freak out and quit. Well, I started college over a month ago and a lot has changed for me. I looked at myself in the mirror and said, "damn, I'm ugly and fat *looks at skin* ...and way to white, I'm going to change in college somehow." I was in my first week of college, scared as hell mind you and went to my first day of psychology. There was over one-hundred and twenty people in the class. I got real early, about thirty minutes early to be exact, and sat down and waited for people to enter the class. People came and came and came. I also had told myself that the first person that sat next to me I was going to talk to not matter what. The talking to a complete stranger scared me more than anything else had ever scared me before. Well, the class was getting filled and my row was almost empty still, I was beginning I chose a bad spot. Then a guy comes up to my row and instead of going into the middle, he sets next to me. At first I couldn't say anything out loud...I was that scared to talk to this guy. The class started and the teacher said that she was going to pass out the syllabus and we could chat, then she mentioned that will be the only time we would ever be able to chat in the class. I held my breath, looked over to the guy, and said the gayest thing because of my stupid nervousness. I said, "what are you?" I was expecting him to say what the hell, but instead, the guy actually new what I meant...which I didn't know was possible, he told me he was a freshman. That was all it took to break the ice. We talked more and more and got to know each other. The class ended and he left for his dorm to get some sleep. I went home and passed a gym. My thoughts at the time was, we have a gym? The next time I had the class I was setting waiting for class to start and the same guy actually came up and sat next to me again. I kinda freaked and didn't know what to do. I just talked, sounded kinda gay at times, but he didn't act like I was. I asked if he was going to go to his dorm to get some more to sleep and he told me that he was going to the gym to start working out. This guy didn't even need to work out, he was already in shape. I told him that I was wanting to start the gym to, and he told my all about it, how it was free, it was open until ten at night, and that it was a great place to get into shape. We walked to the gym and I took a look inside and went home. The next class came around and he sat next to me again. I was thinking, seriously, why would anyone want to talk to me? But he kept talking normally. That morning I had decided that I was going to start going to the gym that day. I asked him if I could join him and well...I can proudly say that I'm finally getting into shape now. He's helped me in so many ways, I would never talk about girls, which was a reason that a lot of people thought I was gay, but he opened me up like a can opener opens a can. We talk about girls, play hoops, or whatever game we're in the mood for, and workout. I started slowly, and on my own for the first couple of weeks. I saw him and his roommate working out together and thought that if I really want to get into shape, I should get some help. I asked him if I could follow him around and he teach me what to do...well, now I don't ask, he tells me what I'm going to do and what kind of pain I'm going to go through. I now work on every aspect of my body and do it at a good level. It has changed my appetite and I'm getting a lot more energy. This week I started running. We've estimated that in about a month or two I'll be running two to two and a half miles per day. I'm even working on a tan...I was so ashamed at how white I looked once I finally took off my shirt in public, but that's another story...It's now has been over a month of vigorous workouts each day and I can feel the transformation slowly coming, and I can't be more ready or excited!

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