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I know myself. I know that I only find happiness with my friends. For that reason, I also know I'm a bit possessive. No matter how I try to hide jealousy it just surfaces. It's hard fighting your own self. It's hard to face something on your own. It's hard to deal with problems involving the people my world revolves in. Shall I say I'm in need of affection? Is it to be put that way? I may just be exaggerating this whole issue but that's the disadvantage of a creative mind. I should know myself better. Truth be told, I'm saddened. Threatened. Weakened. I'm controlled by this jealousy and I want to break from my chains. I want to clear my mind. I want to wipe away the doubts. I don't want to feel threatened anymore. I don't want to lose anything special. I want to be assured with the things I'm confused about. Like, if I'm worth calling a best friend? I don't want to be drowning in jealousy over again.