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... So I have to do things perfectly, later.

I am an amazingly talented procrastinator. I procrastinate procrasinating by arguing with myself about wether or not I should procrastinate. That takes skill.

Here are a few quotes that describe this aspect of me:
"Why leave for tomorrow what you can do the day after tomorrow?" "Hard work pays off in the long run, but slacking pays of now!" "Hard work never killed anyone, but why take the chance?"

... yes. It is that bad.

But I am also OCD. So when I finally get around to doing it, I have to spend hours obsessing over every single detail. I'm so OCD that I'm now actually CDO, because I have to alphebetize the letters!

When I write a story, the phrase has to be the exact right one. Not long ago was I time when I had used the wrong phrase. I said something like, "He didn't like many things..." Ugh. Horrible. Disgusting. Putrid. It does not mean what I want to say. So I obsessed over it while I ate breakfast, and in the car, and then at the grocery store, and then back in the car, and then through piano lessons, and then staring at the wall, trying to figure out what the right phrase was, and then finally, I had it. He was finiky.

As you can see this can cause problems espesially when I have something else important to attend to, because all I can think about is the phrase or word that is wrong. And the annoying thing is that I usually only find the right phrase when I'm thinking about something else.

I have horrible habits. And I cannot seem to get rid of them. *sigh*