It seem silly but it hurts when the one you love is better looking than you. And there are few who look past looks and love only for whats inside. I am probably one of those few. I dont care what a girl or guy looks like I just care about whats inside. Are they a good or bad person. But when someone tells you they dont care about looks ... and you know its probably B.S. it hurts. Because you know you will never be good enough. You will spend all your time looking at all the pretty, beautiful girls thinking "why cant I look that way, what did I do to deserve to look like this? They are the ones who are bitches so why does this so called all mighty god punish me?" It hurts and its a silly thing to hurt over but Im only human. And humans are vain creatures. Well .. the pretty ones are the ones who are allowed to be vain. The one like me ... we could only dream of getting a chance to look good enough to be a vain person. And with the way the media is nowadays ... its brutal if you dont look a certain way. I have seen how some people rag on celebrities and just normal people. Its ... amazing how people can judge so much when they themselves are not perfect. I hate it. I hate looking the way I do. I act fine about it but it kills me. It kills me to have people randomly hate me because of my looks. Because Im not good looking I get treated like crap. I hate it I hate it so much. I hate that the way I look makes me invisible to people. They ignore me until its time for them to make themselves feel good by messing with me and saying s**t to me. Its the worst and It makes me dream about death. I mean really ... who can say stuff about your looks when your six feet under and they cant see you.
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